I barely know you but I would do anything for you, anything.
we always hope we are on other people's mind. "is she looking at me?", "is he looking at me?", "did I just get the wink and the gun??" I could be completely wrong, but for me I wonder what people think. I hate the thought of it. I don't want people looking at me, but I don't want to be looking at them hoping we will make eye contact then it doesn't happen. I am always thinking of other people, but maybe its me thinking of them hoping they are thinking about me. selfish much? but then I know, I care deeply for what someone is going through, I just hope they can do the same for me. me me me me me me, blasphemy. Most days I either wake up or go to sleep saying, stop thinking, don't think, just let whatever is in your ears to guide you. Don't talk, stop saying stupid things, just let it come to you. Don't worry if people care about you, they care about t.h.i.n.g.s.. I had a conversation with someone about how men and women work, in the beginning department. I have been through enough stupid desires and wants to know to that I won't chase. I don't want to chase; I probably will if I see something I really like but I don't want to. I will make myself disgusted with it to the point where I won't want it. But then I come to find out that they love the chase. I hate it, I hate it because often I am chasing nothing, something I thought was there but am not or wasn't what it was looking for. WHY CAN'T I BE WHAT YOU ARE LOOKING FOR, WHY? YOURE EVERYTHING I EVER WANTED. or whatever?
I listened to Zao self titled today whilst I was folding my laundry. I had goosebumps the entire time. It is my way of being high. There are like six people in my life that I could enjoy that with and they are married, getting married, doing acid, doing coke, lifting weights, or sitting on their ass wishing to be a musician. I listen to music to get high. I get high. I have no one next to me, to look into them, see contentment. That is when I am content. That moment of singing along, shredding air guitar, destroying the drums I can't play; it is complete contentment. That is where I get my smile. But then where does it go? It goes to that chase and complete disappointment.
I always think when I am at shows, or at least used to think until they were overrun by 15 year olds, golly that girl is hawt, d00d, 0mg l00k at her. Then I meet one of these things; how can someone be so deep into that fashion yet know nothing? why is that? You would expect someone who looks like that to be endulged by it. But then you come to find out, THE USED and EMERY and HE IS LEGENd! YEAH THOSE ARE AWESOME BANDS LETS GO BUY A TOOTH AND NAIL SAMPLER!!!!! PWNT! I know the answer to the question, it's just upsetting that someone would front themselves as being that kind of person then not have any idea about anything. Then this thing is an awesome human being, the nicest thing ever, just a trend whore. I hate that. I despise it, but how can one hate something so serene? Of course if you know me, you know I hate people that front themselves as music people then are as dumb as a doornail, so I guess life keeps going? I dont know.
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I listened to Zao self titled today whilst I was folding my laundry. I had goosebumps the entire time. It is my way of being high. There are like six people in my life that I could enjoy that with and they are married, getting married, doing acid, doing coke, lifting weights, or sitting on their ass wishing to be a musician. I listen to music to get high. I get high. I have no one next to me, to look into them, see contentment. That is when I am content. That moment of singing along, shredding air guitar, destroying the drums I can't play; it is complete contentment. That is where I get my smile. But then where does it go? It goes to that chase and complete disappointment.
I always think when I am at shows, or at least used to think until they were overrun by 15 year olds, golly that girl is hawt, d00d, 0mg l00k at her. Then I meet one of these things; how can someone be so deep into that fashion yet know nothing? why is that? You would expect someone who looks like that to be endulged by it. But then you come to find out, THE USED and EMERY and HE IS LEGENd! YEAH THOSE ARE AWESOME BANDS LETS GO BUY A TOOTH AND NAIL SAMPLER!!!!! PWNT! I know the answer to the question, it's just upsetting that someone would front themselves as being that kind of person then not have any idea about anything. Then this thing is an awesome human being, the nicest thing ever, just a trend whore. I hate that. I despise it, but how can one hate something so serene? Of course if you know me, you know I hate people that front themselves as music people then are as dumb as a doornail, so I guess life keeps going? I dont know.
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