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I dont really know where to start...
I feel like I screw up many relationships. I don't really know how to be unstupid about this, the right and wrong people read it and don't know what to think.
I am really lonely these past two days. Everyone I know is away and the ones I would like to see, I don't think keep the same opinion. It is great knowing people care. I miss my family a lot. As I have heard to many times "I miss home cooked meals".
I buy too much merch which leads to:
Account Account Number Available
Balance checks xxxxxxxxxx $11.14
numbers xxxxxxxxxx $22.52
Total $33.66
Remember how I worked all summer and missed amazing things. I sadden. I have grown closer to shread. I love it. I miss Alex, we have grown so close, I can't believe I missed high school with him. Alexa moved away; I never got to say goodbye. I doubt if she doesn't hate me something like that. I feel as though many people feel that way about me. You You You You. I care I desire I dance I sleep I eat I bounce You sit You ignore You listen You pass off You drink I drink We Drink We Fuck.
I wish I hadn't left so many relationships on nothing. I sit here waiting for people to call. My gas tank is half empty what to do. I could live without anything and survive. I miss my Mother. Max Pia. Understandable you dont Understand. I think people look at me and say "gibberish". Thats all I talk. No book smarts no love love?
I thought this place would be different. its not. just less. people stop caring people leave people die an old man dies a young girl lives, a fair trade. but its not. the young girl grows to sex and drugs the old man goes to hell he burns he crys for mercy, receives none.
WE CRY FOR MERCY. WHERE IS YOUR gOD? WHERE IS MY GOD? WHERE IS gOD? THERE IS NO gOD! THERE IS LOVE AND TRUTH AND FEAR AND DEATH. And Gibberish. It is hard for me to voice my thoughts and feelings: gibberish.
I will most likely miss Death Cab, I won't think about it then but as time wears on they will grow more towards that which I hate, you hate. They will become TRL. Did you know that Avenged Sevenfold was on TRL friday? is that not insane? It is amazing to see how bands explode and grow. I know many of my favorite bands presently, will turn to MTV2 most likely. Its growth, I am proud to have been my the some what beginning. Bands that reform.. Is it right? You were content with their death? No. You didn't get your fix. I can't wait for that day.
Decisions... Is it worth the wait, worth the strife? Probably. I have heard it is worth the wait. I wish more people would not take such a commodity for granted. I check daily, hourly. Nothing. What is next what am I to do? Don't ruin your life. Do what makes you happy, but think of others before you make a monumental decision. CARE. LOVE. RESPECT. PEACE. Peas. Pies. Sex. X Ray. Yellow. White. Elongated. Death. Hope. Eternal. LOVE. EEEEEEE.
I feel like I screw up many relationships. I don't really know how to be unstupid about this, the right and wrong people read it and don't know what to think.
I am really lonely these past two days. Everyone I know is away and the ones I would like to see, I don't think keep the same opinion. It is great knowing people care. I miss my family a lot. As I have heard to many times "I miss home cooked meals".
I buy too much merch which leads to:
Account Account Number Available
Balance checks xxxxxxxxxx $11.14
numbers xxxxxxxxxx $22.52
Total $33.66
Remember how I worked all summer and missed amazing things. I sadden. I have grown closer to shread. I love it. I miss Alex, we have grown so close, I can't believe I missed high school with him. Alexa moved away; I never got to say goodbye. I doubt if she doesn't hate me something like that. I feel as though many people feel that way about me. You You You You. I care I desire I dance I sleep I eat I bounce You sit You ignore You listen You pass off You drink I drink We Drink We Fuck.
I wish I hadn't left so many relationships on nothing. I sit here waiting for people to call. My gas tank is half empty what to do. I could live without anything and survive. I miss my Mother. Max Pia. Understandable you dont Understand. I think people look at me and say "gibberish". Thats all I talk. No book smarts no love love?
I thought this place would be different. its not. just less. people stop caring people leave people die an old man dies a young girl lives, a fair trade. but its not. the young girl grows to sex and drugs the old man goes to hell he burns he crys for mercy, receives none.
WE CRY FOR MERCY. WHERE IS YOUR gOD? WHERE IS MY GOD? WHERE IS gOD? THERE IS NO gOD! THERE IS LOVE AND TRUTH AND FEAR AND DEATH. And Gibberish. It is hard for me to voice my thoughts and feelings: gibberish.
I will most likely miss Death Cab, I won't think about it then but as time wears on they will grow more towards that which I hate, you hate. They will become TRL. Did you know that Avenged Sevenfold was on TRL friday? is that not insane? It is amazing to see how bands explode and grow. I know many of my favorite bands presently, will turn to MTV2 most likely. Its growth, I am proud to have been my the some what beginning. Bands that reform.. Is it right? You were content with their death? No. You didn't get your fix. I can't wait for that day.
Decisions... Is it worth the wait, worth the strife? Probably. I have heard it is worth the wait. I wish more people would not take such a commodity for granted. I check daily, hourly. Nothing. What is next what am I to do? Don't ruin your life. Do what makes you happy, but think of others before you make a monumental decision. CARE. LOVE. RESPECT. PEACE. Peas. Pies. Sex. X Ray. Yellow. White. Elongated. Death. Hope. Eternal. LOVE. EEEEEEE.