I am too weak to be your cure
This week just keeps getting better and better... NOT.
Well the worst imaginable has happend, my 2 yr. old cousin died yesturday. He drowned in a pool my cousin ray, which is his father found him at the bottom of the pool at the filter, when he brought him out of the water he spit out water, rolled his eyes in the back of his head and died. You never think that something like this could happen to your own family, its so fucked up. I dont even know what to think or what to do i want to help in anyway i can but i just feel so helpless. Nothing can make this better. someone im close with just lost their son... im so scared for him.
I talk about how shitty my life is but now that this has happend its really made me think, it doesnt get much worse than what ray is going through... i have no right to complain and im a horrible person for doing it.
Thank you to everyone who has been there for me, im sorry for shutting you all out, this is just really hard for me... i've lost a lot of ppl i love but this one really hurts. I'll be back to the normal me soon i hope and i hope you will all forgive me for being that wretched miserable person i have been... im done being a bitch theres no use, life is too fragile to spend it hating everyone. I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!
Gabe, i owe you a sincere appology but im not doing it over this. so dont let me "delete" you.
"Maybe It's time to be clear about who I am, I am someone who is looking for love, real love. Rediculous, Inconvenient, Consuming, Cant live without eacother... Love!"