Shortly after the ball falls
So rather than do a crazy party with friends at home, or insane party with strangers in another country... I spent a somewhat quiet evening with family in Mexico. Sure we drank and I'm still totally buzzed, but compared to last year, this was the tamest New Years Eve since I was a teenager. Heh. That's actually a long time when I say it now.
Earlier, minutes after the new year dawned on us all, I tried to think of some meaning or goal or foresight to 2010, but came up totally blank. I remember at the end of 2008 I was filled full of premonition, full of absolute certainty as to what the year had in store for me.. what's scary is a lot of it was absolutely spot on. What does this nothingness when I project into 2010 mean? A mystery? I like it. That's what I want to think, it's what I tell myself to think. 2010 will be bringing on a quarter century of me breathing and thinking and moving.. am I going to continue making every moment count? Have I been? Sometimes, absolutely. Other times, absolutely not. What a fucked up jumble of drunken thoughts this is turning out to be.
I'm still processing what this vacation has been for me. This has been the longest time off I've had since I started working a year and a half ago. Did I spend this time wisely? Was it wasted? Surely I don't spend enough time with my family and it was good to do so.. but what about spending my youth traveling, seeing the world, partying with friends... did I sabotage an excellent opportunity? I now have 0 vacation days and will have to pain stakingly save them up for another opportunity like this. What is the Asia trip going to happen? When is the Euro trip going to happen? Ugh. I wish we got more time off at my company.
At the end of the day, I still have my health and that's something to be thankful for. I hope all my LJ friends, you all, have a year full of joy and good fortune.
Earlier, minutes after the new year dawned on us all, I tried to think of some meaning or goal or foresight to 2010, but came up totally blank. I remember at the end of 2008 I was filled full of premonition, full of absolute certainty as to what the year had in store for me.. what's scary is a lot of it was absolutely spot on. What does this nothingness when I project into 2010 mean? A mystery? I like it. That's what I want to think, it's what I tell myself to think. 2010 will be bringing on a quarter century of me breathing and thinking and moving.. am I going to continue making every moment count? Have I been? Sometimes, absolutely. Other times, absolutely not. What a fucked up jumble of drunken thoughts this is turning out to be.
I'm still processing what this vacation has been for me. This has been the longest time off I've had since I started working a year and a half ago. Did I spend this time wisely? Was it wasted? Surely I don't spend enough time with my family and it was good to do so.. but what about spending my youth traveling, seeing the world, partying with friends... did I sabotage an excellent opportunity? I now have 0 vacation days and will have to pain stakingly save them up for another opportunity like this. What is the Asia trip going to happen? When is the Euro trip going to happen? Ugh. I wish we got more time off at my company.
At the end of the day, I still have my health and that's something to be thankful for. I hope all my LJ friends, you all, have a year full of joy and good fortune.