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I'm horrible at this writing thing these days. Not just journaling, but everything. Part of me wants to be writing, so hopefully I'll be able to put something down on paper soon. I've never gone this long without before.
It's been busy. As always.
Classes are getting harder, there's more pressure at work, and i feel like my performance is slipping in every aspect of my life. I can barely keep up with the reading assignments, but I seem to be getting them okay. Although my fundamentals of corp finance class is all over the place, and i hate that. i don't understand why the prof is throwing derivatives at us and only talking about investment banking. it has nothing to do with the class or the $200 book i had to buy for it.
I feel like i spend all of my time either at work, class, or trying to get myself to focus on studying. i feel like i'm losing touch with most of my friends. partially because i'm too busy to always call or write or even hang out. and partially because it's the same for them. it's kind of lonely. and with my family so far away now, i can't even go home for a weekend to relax and hang out with my mom, and i miss her so much. It's hard adjusting to the fact that I will only be seeing her once, maybe twice a year now. Since I have to work the day after thanksgiving, i'm going to be here in nyc all by myself. I'll make myself a turkey burger and study and get stuff done like it's any other day off. but there's just something really sad about it.
this weekend, i went to CT for Mel's baby shower. I still cannot believe that in a couple months she'll be a mom. it's so crazy. I decided to go up to CT saturday night and hang with Nikki so that I could drive to the shower with her instead of metro-northing it, but my amtrak had one problem after another, ending in the engine dying and having to be towed to new haven. It was miserable, but i shouldn't be surprised because these crazy things always seem to happen to me. But it was great to see everyone and hang out with Kellen's family and friends.
Next weekend is halloween, and we're doing Boston. Friday night we'll be at Mel and Kenny's, and saturday we're out in Beantown for Chris's birthday. It should be a good time. I need to decide on my costume.
ugh. i don't know what's wrong with me. Seasonal affective disorder maybe. Or maybe I just want a break from everything for a while.
It's been busy. As always.
Classes are getting harder, there's more pressure at work, and i feel like my performance is slipping in every aspect of my life. I can barely keep up with the reading assignments, but I seem to be getting them okay. Although my fundamentals of corp finance class is all over the place, and i hate that. i don't understand why the prof is throwing derivatives at us and only talking about investment banking. it has nothing to do with the class or the $200 book i had to buy for it.
I feel like i spend all of my time either at work, class, or trying to get myself to focus on studying. i feel like i'm losing touch with most of my friends. partially because i'm too busy to always call or write or even hang out. and partially because it's the same for them. it's kind of lonely. and with my family so far away now, i can't even go home for a weekend to relax and hang out with my mom, and i miss her so much. It's hard adjusting to the fact that I will only be seeing her once, maybe twice a year now. Since I have to work the day after thanksgiving, i'm going to be here in nyc all by myself. I'll make myself a turkey burger and study and get stuff done like it's any other day off. but there's just something really sad about it.
this weekend, i went to CT for Mel's baby shower. I still cannot believe that in a couple months she'll be a mom. it's so crazy. I decided to go up to CT saturday night and hang with Nikki so that I could drive to the shower with her instead of metro-northing it, but my amtrak had one problem after another, ending in the engine dying and having to be towed to new haven. It was miserable, but i shouldn't be surprised because these crazy things always seem to happen to me. But it was great to see everyone and hang out with Kellen's family and friends.
Next weekend is halloween, and we're doing Boston. Friday night we'll be at Mel and Kenny's, and saturday we're out in Beantown for Chris's birthday. It should be a good time. I need to decide on my costume.
ugh. i don't know what's wrong with me. Seasonal affective disorder maybe. Or maybe I just want a break from everything for a while.