Everything beautiful dies so kiss it goodbye

[addn2thenoise]

how come we havnt talked in forever, and you dont call any more? i thought we were best friends..now i'm starting to think. its killing me inside to know i wont have you there next year, and wont be able to write you a note to meet me in the bathroom because i'm feeling down and i need to cry on your shoulder. what am i going to do? i've been feeling down lately, but you wouldnt know that because you dont call. when you moved we had a heart to heart and i was worried we wouldnt talk much or see eachother, but you promised me we would talk every day and see eachother on weekends but the whole summer has passed and i saw you what? once? that hurts..to know i'm feeling pain and need to talk to you..because your my best friend and i trust you..and yet you havnt even kept your promise. whats happing to our friendship? are you feeling like this too? i thought we said best friends till the end..well i doubted that the other day..and then i felt horrible for even thinking that. i need you to come here..and for us to go on a long walk and let everything out, and then come back..order chinese food and watch the hott chick 2 or 3 times and burn popcorn and then turn out the lights, snuggle under the blanket and just cry on eachothers shoulders and you tell me everything will be ok..i love when you tell me that. i miss that, i havnt had a hug in forever, and i could use one. i actually snuggled under the covers last night, and held your snowman then cried myself to sleep..how pathtic? man..i hope your missing everything too..and you call soon. we were suppose to have a sleep over at my house and go on our walk, but you never showed up or called i waited for your call all day..what happened? you only got my hopes up. i miss you. and love you so much. i'll see you when i see you, i guess. <3

i need you here..like you've always been