...WillWeEverMeetTheRightWay?
well i'm sick again today. not as sick as yesterday though, which is definitely good. but i despise missing school... i really wish i was there right now. for one, it's always so boring at home, especially now that preston always has classes, and there's always so much fucking make up work which is what really sucks! oi vay...
well last night i was on the phone with preston and we were talking, of course, and we were having an awesome conversation, and i didn't want it to end. well, he said the words that i despise... "i'm gonna go..." with that stupid little trailing off ness. well i didn't take it as i want to continue this conversation, but i also have a desire to be with my friends and relax since i've been in classes all day which is apparently what it was meant to be taken as... but i took it as i don't want to talk to you anymore so i'm going to go hang out with my friends..because they're enjoyable to be with. obviously, this is an exaggeration. but still, none-the-less, i was kinda hurt. so i said, sort of jokingly, and out of habit... i said "no you're not" and oh well, let me tell you, that was the wrong response! earlier this week, a similar situation happened... where preston was like "im gonna go" and me, being the conceited libra i am, was like "no you're not, you're going to stay and talk to me because i have some stuff to tell you" well. i told him that i would stop doing the whole no you're not thing. yeah... i guess i just miss him a lot. i miss talking to him for hours every day. i miss the feeling of his strong arms holding me close. i miss his smell... gah i love his smell. it's so... intoxicating. i mean, i really really hope that i get to go to dallas this weekend so i can see him... if i dont, ugh... i'll be so disappointed. i mean, i even get monday off! so it's like, can't we just drive in on friday, drop me off at the game, then my dad and brother can go sleep @ my aunts house, and then they can pick me up late saturday night! ugh... i just miss him. and i'm sorry that i keep being so self-centered, i just want you to myself! i'm sorry for that! ugh... oh well...
i'm going to go watch some movies or something...
