nothing at all
havent updated in a loonng tyme cuz this journal was ugly. lol but now thanks to lindsay its cute again. but yeah things are okay.
i completely forgot wat i have done in the last week i havent updated but i doubt it matters.
saturday (april 9th)- the st andrews dance. better than usual, but i got pissed wats new? cuz gay faggy people have to try and get me jealous. he is an asshole, but i still like him. who knows w/e. but yeah it was okay cuz my friends, but ew how gay u can get seriously. ur so mean to me. but w/e
umm alotta stuff has happened family wise. i guess im just starting to relize alotta things and that things change, im just not ready. its been 3 years and i didnt think about it till now, but it will NEVER go back to how it used to be. i kno i have alotta pple that care and to talk about it with but i dont kno if they will understand. i cry everyday about it. i would of never thought my life ending up like this. you're life really can change from one little mistake. i dont wanna sound gay but i really cant explain my feelings.
i dont show it, but im really not okay.
im at tha point were i really dont give a shit if i have friends or not.
today--was okay, not bad. im so sick of fake people, get over ur self. seriously. but yeah today was fine i guess. but maybe tomorrow will be better
thanks jordan for everything<3 ur a great friends im always here for you.
_x_i just wanna be okay_x_