Flips Stuff Off the Desk A La Taemin Lonely Stupidty Tonight
I'm a loner by nature. I've come to accept that... or at least I'm trying to accept it. I need huge amounts of quiet alone time, especially when I'm trying to write or other things. As much as I love music, I don't even play music quite a bit of the time because I find it gets on my nerves or it fails to aid concentration.
It's not a fib to say that writing is my life. It's the thing that fulfills me the most, the thing that satisfies me the most in the creative sense. It is the way I identify myself to myself if not to other people.
And yet, there are times like tonight when I really want to talk to other people. I really want to share what I'm thinking about, spazzing about etc. But, either a conversation fizzles out if started or else I can't keep a conversation going. There's this paradoxical thing that happens.
I'm lonely and kind of frustrated tonight. *sigh* Sorry to be cluttering up your flists with my waaaah.
Anyway, i have chocolate pie in the fridge. I think i should go eat some.