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Ok sooooooo..... this week honestly hasn't been easy it's been anything but, dealing with the death of a classmate isn't easy. Even though i didn't really talk to him all that much but i did go to school with him from 4-12 grade so yeah as you can see it was a while. But the funny part is that from 4-6th grade we had the same classes together and we always sat next to each other odd but funny. So i went to the visitation last night ugh... that was bad i didn't believe it until i saw him just layin there in that cuffin hard but now i believe it but in a odd way i still want to think this is a sick joke but it's not. After i went to the visitation kim and i walked out together and she told me "sarah when my mom told me that someone committed suicide i thought it was you" my heart just drop to my feet. I would never do that to myself A) because it's selffish and B) i couldn't do that to my friends put them through so much pain. Anywho kim told me that she was sorry forever treating me like shit because she said you just don't talk to us anymore and i guess my "friends" start to worry when you stop talking to them which i really hope after this that they suck up there pride and become friends with me again or so i hope. Well kim and i needless to say started balling (like i haven't cried enough already) so now this morning my eyes are real puffy and swore. I haven't been sleeping well the past couple days it's like i'm in bed but not sleeping so i'm always tried sucks. I have to go back to work today which my just be good for me to get out of vassar and get with my work friends to cheer me wendie is coming over today which i'm excited about i miss her. Well i can't think of anymore but have a good one.