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sometimes i stop to think for a minute and all i want to do is fall to pieces. i just want to break down and cry till i have no feeling left and i'm completely numb.
Sometimes its over anything. Reading books about gay romance and how i have no one. Or knowing that i could really have someone i just try that hard because i dont want myself to hurt. Or that i fall in love with the wrong person at all the wrong times. Or that sometimes all i want to do is snap at people and wish that i didnt bottle everything up because i know its not healthy. But i can't do that i can't just snap and go crazy because thats not how im suppose to behave myself or some bullshit i come up with in my head.
So today i just want to sit in my room and cry and then i want to go break things.
Sometimes its over anything. Reading books about gay romance and how i have no one. Or knowing that i could really have someone i just try that hard because i dont want myself to hurt. Or that i fall in love with the wrong person at all the wrong times. Or that sometimes all i want to do is snap at people and wish that i didnt bottle everything up because i know its not healthy. But i can't do that i can't just snap and go crazy because thats not how im suppose to behave myself or some bullshit i come up with in my head.
So today i just want to sit in my room and cry and then i want to go break things.