hmmm.
A lot has happened the last few days.
I have no voice....I have been WAY to sick
I started my new job a few days ago....GREAT. Love this office.
So I can train in better health and get ready for Monday they are giving me thurs-sund off. I haven't been off work THAT long...in years.
Because of this......I will be seeing Brian one day sooner. (which is a surprise...and I know he'll love it when I end up just showing up on his door step.)
I hope my car makes it there. lol.
After thinking about it...if things keep going the way they are....
I will probably be moving to Indiana in a few months.
I love everyone here. I have a lot going on in Chicago. Friends, Family, Job, future school, etc...
I loved the way Kaurina lightened the whole topic.....she reminded me that I have always put everyone before myself. I am not selfish. I am not ignorant. Nor am I just plain dumb. She also reminded me that I'm 23...I need to experience now..not later. And I have ALWAYS been the one to say "follow your dreams"...shit...."follow your impulses." you never know where life may lead you.
Right now, I think life wants me to leave chicago. Chicago will always have my heart....but to live in the country........I get to live near nature again. aaaaaaaaa.....*breathes* there are colleges within comutible distance to his house. He loves me. Everything about me. He wants to take care of me.
and I deserve to be treated with that respect. I have never had that, let me try it out for once. I will be going down there this weekend to be with him and his son. Austin, age 9. He would come up here but he has drill all weekend....so I'm gonna bond with Austin and see how it goes. Austin does nOT live with him...just every other weekend or so. Then the weekend after that he is coming up to meet my dad and the grandparents. *nervousssss*
We are not getting married anytime soon. and I will NOT be moving down there for another 3 months AT LEAST...but this is the heads up. If everything works out as planned.
I want to know someone cares for me, and he does.
I will say ...I never expected to be with someone like him. He's nothing I would look for and he has everything I have always wanted. Pushing my shallow ego aside....he's amazing.
Well I'm at the office now...so let me take these spiraling thoughts and dump them in some boiling brew...let it simmer.
adios.
I have no voice....I have been WAY to sick
I started my new job a few days ago....GREAT. Love this office.
So I can train in better health and get ready for Monday they are giving me thurs-sund off. I haven't been off work THAT long...in years.
Because of this......I will be seeing Brian one day sooner. (which is a surprise...and I know he'll love it when I end up just showing up on his door step.)
I hope my car makes it there. lol.
After thinking about it...if things keep going the way they are....
I will probably be moving to Indiana in a few months.
I love everyone here. I have a lot going on in Chicago. Friends, Family, Job, future school, etc...
I loved the way Kaurina lightened the whole topic.....she reminded me that I have always put everyone before myself. I am not selfish. I am not ignorant. Nor am I just plain dumb. She also reminded me that I'm 23...I need to experience now..not later. And I have ALWAYS been the one to say "follow your dreams"...shit...."follow your impulses." you never know where life may lead you.
Right now, I think life wants me to leave chicago. Chicago will always have my heart....but to live in the country........I get to live near nature again. aaaaaaaaa.....*breathes* there are colleges within comutible distance to his house. He loves me. Everything about me. He wants to take care of me.
and I deserve to be treated with that respect. I have never had that, let me try it out for once. I will be going down there this weekend to be with him and his son. Austin, age 9. He would come up here but he has drill all weekend....so I'm gonna bond with Austin and see how it goes. Austin does nOT live with him...just every other weekend or so. Then the weekend after that he is coming up to meet my dad and the grandparents. *nervousssss*
We are not getting married anytime soon. and I will NOT be moving down there for another 3 months AT LEAST...but this is the heads up. If everything works out as planned.
I want to know someone cares for me, and he does.
I will say ...I never expected to be with someone like him. He's nothing I would look for and he has everything I have always wanted. Pushing my shallow ego aside....he's amazing.
Well I'm at the office now...so let me take these spiraling thoughts and dump them in some boiling brew...let it simmer.
adios.