lame me
alright hey everybody,
tracey reminded me that i should update more. thats a good idea. so my life has been alright lately. this weekend was a pretty good one.
correia stairs was a highlight, people wont even understand how ghetto of a place could be so much fun. good times with my girls.
i also found out i LOVE candy apples from the fair that was a highlight of my weekend as well.
i have become a lot better friends with paige and for that i am happy its nice to have her as a friend and i love her a million billion.
mary is such a great friend to talk to. she understands everything i am going through. lately there has been troubles with my jonny. his exgirlfriends have been trying to tell me rumors and tell me all these lies. part of me belives them just so i can be proven wrong. i would rather expect the worse and belive them and be proven wrong, then to not think they are true and then be told they really are. i dunno maybe its just me. it probably is confusing. i just dont know what i would do without jon. i mean i know i have talked about this before on my livejournal, but seriously being awya from him has deffiantly set thing into perspective for me. i really realize that i do love jon. i have never felt this way about anyone before and its so much harder knowign this without being aanywhere near him. and i finally belive it when he says he loves me too. i know he loves me and i feel comfortable saying this to myself. its just so hard not being happy and being away from the one thing that does make you happy. i mean i dont know what i woudl do without my friends they have helped me through this hard time so much. sometimes i just wont go out or do anything because i want to be home and jsut think or relax or talk to jon for a long time. everyday after school i look forward to talking to jon even if its only for 5 minutes, it makes things so much better. i hate myself for not being able to makie him feel better, i know he misses me and he isnt doing well cause of me and i hate being away from him or not being able to fix his problems. all i know i can look forward to is in 29 days when i go to boston and see him. i will finally be able to be with him everyday for a week and see him every second. thank you kelly for letting me go to your house and let out my problems and everything it means a lot.
ok well im sorry for depressing people i just needed to let that out..
thank yo correia stairs crew...you make my life 100 times better :)
and my paigey poo i love you
and everyone else..LOVEs
tracey reminded me that i should update more. thats a good idea. so my life has been alright lately. this weekend was a pretty good one.
correia stairs was a highlight, people wont even understand how ghetto of a place could be so much fun. good times with my girls.
i also found out i LOVE candy apples from the fair that was a highlight of my weekend as well.
i have become a lot better friends with paige and for that i am happy its nice to have her as a friend and i love her a million billion.
mary is such a great friend to talk to. she understands everything i am going through. lately there has been troubles with my jonny. his exgirlfriends have been trying to tell me rumors and tell me all these lies. part of me belives them just so i can be proven wrong. i would rather expect the worse and belive them and be proven wrong, then to not think they are true and then be told they really are. i dunno maybe its just me. it probably is confusing. i just dont know what i would do without jon. i mean i know i have talked about this before on my livejournal, but seriously being awya from him has deffiantly set thing into perspective for me. i really realize that i do love jon. i have never felt this way about anyone before and its so much harder knowign this without being aanywhere near him. and i finally belive it when he says he loves me too. i know he loves me and i feel comfortable saying this to myself. its just so hard not being happy and being away from the one thing that does make you happy. i mean i dont know what i woudl do without my friends they have helped me through this hard time so much. sometimes i just wont go out or do anything because i want to be home and jsut think or relax or talk to jon for a long time. everyday after school i look forward to talking to jon even if its only for 5 minutes, it makes things so much better. i hate myself for not being able to makie him feel better, i know he misses me and he isnt doing well cause of me and i hate being away from him or not being able to fix his problems. all i know i can look forward to is in 29 days when i go to boston and see him. i will finally be able to be with him everyday for a week and see him every second. thank you kelly for letting me go to your house and let out my problems and everything it means a lot.
ok well im sorry for depressing people i just needed to let that out..
thank yo correia stairs crew...you make my life 100 times better :)
and my paigey poo i love you
and everyone else..LOVEs