Happy Turkey Day!
Click to viewI'm sorry I found this video on youtube and I just loved it so I wanted to share it with you. If you listen to the lyrics they are amazing. I can relate to it so much. I love how the video begins. You really should check it out! My favorite lines are:
I'm reaching out to you
I won't save you unless you want me too
You try to make it on your own
But even in a crowd feel alone
Also I wanted to give you all an update on one of my stories.
Title: The way I loved you
Disclaimer: I did not create nor do I own the characters of NCIS. I only borrow them for a little while.
Summary: Tony’s heart is broken. What’s he going to do about it?
Prologue
Chapter 1- I Don't Miss You At All
Chapter 2- Stop and Erase
Chapter Three
Always and Forever
It had not occurred to Tony until he was trying to clear any and all reminders of Ziva out of his apartment just how big a part she had been playing in his life. With each item he handed to Abby to be discarded he could not help but think of the story that each item reminded him. He could not help himself as he thought of happier times. A time when Tony and Ziva didn’t care about what anyone thought, they had just been content to be with the other. Yet now as he looked back he wondered if she had actually felt the same way that he had. Had everything he had known been a lie? Though no matter what she had done to him he knew that a part of him would always be in love with Ziva. Tony started on the pictures that were scattered across his entertainment center. Tony fingered a specific picture in his hands remembering just what had occurred when he had taken it.
It had been another late night for the two NCIS agents and Tony was glad to finally be able to slide into bed with Ziva. The last few days had been so stressful, especially for Tony, as he had been staking out a warehouse with McGee at night while Ziva had taken the day shift with Gibbs. He was glad it was all over. No matter how stressful his day got he knew that when he went home he would be able to bring Ziva close and forget about all of his problems. He had not been able to do that for almost a week and it had gotten to him. Even McGee had asked Tony if something was bothering as the normally happy agent was getting cranky.
Tony slipped his arms around Ziva and kissed her ear. He grinned when he saw a smile break across her lips. Her eyes were closed shut and Tony knew that she was trying to pretend to be sleeping. He reached behind him and grabbed the camera he had snuck into the room. He had been trying to get a picture of them together for the longest but Ziva would always duck out of it at the last second. He wasn’t going to let that happen this time. He moved away from her ear before his lips were drawn to hers like magnets. He snapped the picture midway through the kiss hoping that it came out. The flash went off and Tony felt Ziva flinch a little surprised. She pulled away and attempted to glare at him. Though it wasn’t working as she was trying to fight to keep the smile off her face as Tony’s hand drifted down her body.
“I should teach you a lesson,” Ziva told him, her voice raspy from lack of oxygen.
“You should,” Tony countered, a smirk sliding across his lips, “I have been naughty.”
Tony snapped out of his day dream when he realized that Abby was trying to get his attention. He quickly handed her the photo before he could slide back into his thoughts. It was not something he wanted to think of.
“You always were good at taking pictures,” Abby told him as she admired the picture, “It looks good even though you’re with her.”
Abby’s voice was filled with anger when she said her. Tony grinned. He was glad that Abby was helping him do this. She always managed to be able to make him laugh when he wanted to cry. And after those thoughts had passed through his mind he had really wanted to cry.
“You always know what to say Abs,” Tony said as he voiced his thoughts out loud.
Abby just smiled softly before she left Tony for a moment to put the first full box by the door. Tony wasn’t sure what he wanted to do with the boxes once everything was gathered, but he guessed he would cross that bridge when he got there. Tony moved away from the entertainment center and into the kitchen. Ziva had left her favorite mug in his kitchen and he did not want to throw it away. He was simply going to ask Abby to return it to her. Tony pulled the black mug out. He ran his fingers across the word that was written on it.
‘Ziva’
It had taken forever for Tony to be able to track down a coffee mug with her name on it. But when he had seen the look on her face when he had handed it to her he knew it had been worth the trouble. It had quickly become her favorite mug and she had used it every day to drink her coffee. She had even brought it work a few times. He remembered distinctly the day she had first brought the mug to work.
Tony watched out of the corner of his eye as Ziva returned to her desk with the mug he had given her the day before in her hand. He had not realized she had brought the mug to work. He smiled at the thought that she loved it that much.
“Nice mug Ziva,” McGee told her, referring to how her name was etched on it with fancy letters.
“Thank you McGee,” Ziva replied.
“Did you get it specially made?” McGee inquired.
“I do not know,” Ziva said with a small smile, “It was a gift from somebody special.”
McGee raised an eyebrow before he started to bug her about telling him who the lucky guy was. Tony couldn’t help but chuckle as he realized that McGee was taking on his role. Tony had always wanted to learn more about the personal lives of the people around him. Yet for the first time since he started working with them he didn’t dare ask Ziva about the mystery man. He wondered if they noticed his sudden silence on a topic he was usually very loud about. Tony felt someone staring at him. He soon found that it was Gibbs who was staring at him with a blank expression. It was then that Tony realized Gibbs had figured out who the mystery man was.
“You’re the one who bought Ziva this mug?” Abby asked, breaking Tony out of his thoughts.
“Yeah,” Tony replied quietly, “Do you think you could give it to her. It was her favorite.”
Abby nodded before she took the mug from his hand. She found it cute that even though Ziva had broken his heart that he still wanted her to be able to have her favorite mug. She was also angry at Ziva for breaking his heart. She couldn’t understand how anyone would want to break Tony’s heart. She realized that if you took the time to look beneath Tony’s exterior ass personality he was actually a sweet and thoughtful guy.
“Don’t quit on love Tony,” Abby said suddenly.
Tony looked up in surprise. He never could understand how Abby always knew exactly what he needed to hear. When he had broken up with Jeanne and after she had accused him of murder it had been Abby’s words of comfort that had helped him move on. Here she was again telling him exactly what he needed to hear about Ziva even if it wasn’t exactly what he wanted to hear.
“I don’t know if I can,” Tony admitted.
Abby looked at him with a sad smile. He knew that she would know exactly what to say now since she did not know the entire story. No one but Tony and Ziva knew the truth of why they broke up. Tony realized he was never going to move on until he confided in someone the real reason Ziva had broken up with him. Tony stared at Abby for a moment before he hurried back into the other room and over to his make shift desk. He knew Abby had followed him behind curious to where he had gone suddenly. He reached into the bottom draw and lifted out a small black box. He heard Abby gasp from behind her. He wondered if Abby figured out on her own what had happened.
“Tony…” Abby stuttered out, “I had no idea.”
“No one did,” Tony quietly told her.
He turned around and found Abby staring directly at her. He opened the small box revealing a three stone engagement ring that held real diamonds. Abby covered her mouth as she gasped from surprise.
“Tony it’s beautiful,” Abby gushed.
“At least someone thinks so,” Tony muttered.
Tony watched as everything clicked for Abby. He knew it wouldn’t be hard for the Goth to figure everything out once he showed her the ring. He had proposed to Ziva and instead of saying Ziva had broken up with him. He watched as anger filled Abby’s eyes and before he could stop her Abby had run out of the room. Tony didn’t move an inch to stop her. He knew exactly where she was going. There was nothing he could do to stop the enraged woman.
A/n: Muwahaha where do you think Abby’s going?