A day in the life......
OMG.....where to start.
Do you ever think, will I ever get things in my life right? I feel so disconnected from everything right now. And when I say everything, I mean EVERYTHING. Today, as I got up and started off to work, I literally felt like the walking dead. A Zombie? A Robot? Just going through the motions. Ya know? When I think about "the girls"...it feels like YEARS since I have been in touch with them (which is an exaggeration-NO DOUBT). I don't really know where this is coming from. I just feel like I am never going to have time even to do the simple stuff. I know that buying a house is SO time consuming, but my wonderful husband is doing the majority of the "HARD STUFF" with all of it. And you know that "good part" that's in each of us. Mine came back and bit me in the ass! When I was married before, and was getting a divorce, my ex husband took my credit cards and ran up huge bills on them. Then the nice judge decided that since my ex husband decided to file bankruptcy, and both of our names were on these cards....I would get to pay his bills as well as my own. In the whole house buying process I am trying to locate some of these papers of the things that I payed off. Wanna talk about PAIN IN THE BUTT!!! Luckily I have a lawyer in the fam who is helping me! Some part of me wonders if it has something to do with my granny not being around. I wonder if I shouldn't be a bit further in the grieving process. Who knows? Who's to say where I should be? We all grieve differently. I guess I miss my girls, I miss my family (what we use to be), I miss my old job, and my friends there. I need a vacation....somewhere far away....well, somewhere different.
I know it's been forever since I've posted anything....then I come on here gripin' about life! I guess I just needed a bit of a rant.
Do you ever think, will I ever get things in my life right? I feel so disconnected from everything right now. And when I say everything, I mean EVERYTHING. Today, as I got up and started off to work, I literally felt like the walking dead. A Zombie? A Robot? Just going through the motions. Ya know? When I think about "the girls"...it feels like YEARS since I have been in touch with them (which is an exaggeration-NO DOUBT). I don't really know where this is coming from. I just feel like I am never going to have time even to do the simple stuff. I know that buying a house is SO time consuming, but my wonderful husband is doing the majority of the "HARD STUFF" with all of it. And you know that "good part" that's in each of us. Mine came back and bit me in the ass! When I was married before, and was getting a divorce, my ex husband took my credit cards and ran up huge bills on them. Then the nice judge decided that since my ex husband decided to file bankruptcy, and both of our names were on these cards....I would get to pay his bills as well as my own. In the whole house buying process I am trying to locate some of these papers of the things that I payed off. Wanna talk about PAIN IN THE BUTT!!! Luckily I have a lawyer in the fam who is helping me! Some part of me wonders if it has something to do with my granny not being around. I wonder if I shouldn't be a bit further in the grieving process. Who knows? Who's to say where I should be? We all grieve differently. I guess I miss my girls, I miss my family (what we use to be), I miss my old job, and my friends there. I need a vacation....somewhere far away....well, somewhere different.
I know it's been forever since I've posted anything....then I come on here gripin' about life! I guess I just needed a bit of a rant.