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Since I do want to start using this journal more, I am posting this here too. Dunno what will happen but it will prolly be a slow long process...We'll see.
I am tired so this may be completely incoherent.
I am happy. I have been for a few days now...things seem to be going well and I seem to be on track with school which does make me unbelievably happy. I like getting good grades and I love learning the stuff I am working on right now, minus some of the poetry. And I know tomorrow will be good. Fridays are always good. Lorna and I always go out for lunch and tomorrow it will be followed by shopping.
And yet there is this underlying sadness that just seems to be lurking...
I miss people. And I know I detach myself from them and I am not sorry for that at all, its what I need right now. But I miss certain people. My mom was suppose to come into town this weekend but someone go sick and now she can't make it/ However, she should be coming to the beach sometimes closer to my birthday, which would be nicer anyway....I wonder how many people will actually remember my birthday this year...fewer and fewer it seems. I miss other various friends too.
And I am worried. Chasity, my dad's 23 year old pregnant girlfriend, went to the doctor today. And he told her the baby had dropped into position. I am not exactly sure what he meant by that. I think he meant that it just turned upside down, hopefully he's not pressing on the cervix yet...this all seems like its happening too soon. Her due date is December 28...he was going to be a Capricorn. She feels confident that even if he does come early, as long as he can wait a few more weeks, she thinks he'll be fine. And I hope so...despite my problems with her and my dad...I already love this kid...he's my only brother. And he's my only sibling that I will actually have the chance to know. I plan on spoiling him rotten...so many plans for my little bodda man.
I just hope he's ok.
School: I am now learning how to do Age and Sex estimations on Human Remains. In fact, in lab today, I got most of them right. However, since it was a lab, our specimen were pretty much text book with a few examples. It's nice to actually get our hands on real bones finally. The plastic ones are great and they are an excellent learning tool but the feel, texture that a real bones has is amazing. Its so nice, I love it. And I now sound like a freak officially.
Poetry is coming up soon. I want to post two poems here for opinions, seriously opinions. I will also post comments that my classmates and friends have made for atleast one of the poems to give a general idea what I am asking of the people who read this. I just want to make these two...perfect. They are both very personal and very...its almost like I wrote these with my blood. But, that doesn't mean that if you don't like something about them, don't tell me. Esspecially if you don't like something, TELL ME. I want these to be the best damn works they can be. Maybe I will do that tomorrow.
I got my shoes, I wear them, I love them.
I need to get my hair done soon...and I will..just as soon as I lose a tad bit more weight.
And I still miss people...but it is good to remember some of them too.
I am tired so this may be completely incoherent.
I am happy. I have been for a few days now...things seem to be going well and I seem to be on track with school which does make me unbelievably happy. I like getting good grades and I love learning the stuff I am working on right now, minus some of the poetry. And I know tomorrow will be good. Fridays are always good. Lorna and I always go out for lunch and tomorrow it will be followed by shopping.
And yet there is this underlying sadness that just seems to be lurking...
I miss people. And I know I detach myself from them and I am not sorry for that at all, its what I need right now. But I miss certain people. My mom was suppose to come into town this weekend but someone go sick and now she can't make it/ However, she should be coming to the beach sometimes closer to my birthday, which would be nicer anyway....I wonder how many people will actually remember my birthday this year...fewer and fewer it seems. I miss other various friends too.
And I am worried. Chasity, my dad's 23 year old pregnant girlfriend, went to the doctor today. And he told her the baby had dropped into position. I am not exactly sure what he meant by that. I think he meant that it just turned upside down, hopefully he's not pressing on the cervix yet...this all seems like its happening too soon. Her due date is December 28...he was going to be a Capricorn. She feels confident that even if he does come early, as long as he can wait a few more weeks, she thinks he'll be fine. And I hope so...despite my problems with her and my dad...I already love this kid...he's my only brother. And he's my only sibling that I will actually have the chance to know. I plan on spoiling him rotten...so many plans for my little bodda man.
I just hope he's ok.
School: I am now learning how to do Age and Sex estimations on Human Remains. In fact, in lab today, I got most of them right. However, since it was a lab, our specimen were pretty much text book with a few examples. It's nice to actually get our hands on real bones finally. The plastic ones are great and they are an excellent learning tool but the feel, texture that a real bones has is amazing. Its so nice, I love it. And I now sound like a freak officially.
Poetry is coming up soon. I want to post two poems here for opinions, seriously opinions. I will also post comments that my classmates and friends have made for atleast one of the poems to give a general idea what I am asking of the people who read this. I just want to make these two...perfect. They are both very personal and very...its almost like I wrote these with my blood. But, that doesn't mean that if you don't like something about them, don't tell me. Esspecially if you don't like something, TELL ME. I want these to be the best damn works they can be. Maybe I will do that tomorrow.
I got my shoes, I wear them, I love them.
I need to get my hair done soon...and I will..just as soon as I lose a tad bit more weight.
And I still miss people...but it is good to remember some of them too.