Life suckage.
I hate this. I don't want to be strong anymore...I don't want to be picky, to find something wrong with everybody. I want my courage to disappear, then, maybe I'd be happy.
I wasn't happy. So I broke it off with Potter. We're still going to be friends though...
We were completely falling apart. We'd get pissed at each other for no reason and it was crap. Plus, I'm normally a crazy-hyper quirky random person and I couldn't be like that with him. I tried to include him in it and it didn't work...I was dying inside.
I thought I'd feel better afterwards. A tad bit of relief. I feel nothing. I feel empty. I feel horrible. Hense the reason I want my strength to deminish.
He and I have been through so much aka my depression. His family is amazing...grrrrr....I totally and completely suck.
On somewhat of an up side...there's going to be some changes made. I guess I'm going to embrace this. I'm going to stay single for awhile. Deal with my commitment phobia. Because I'm beginning to think that I have a severe issue with commitment. I need a hug...o_o.
I need to run.
I wasn't happy. So I broke it off with Potter. We're still going to be friends though...
We were completely falling apart. We'd get pissed at each other for no reason and it was crap. Plus, I'm normally a crazy-hyper quirky random person and I couldn't be like that with him. I tried to include him in it and it didn't work...I was dying inside.
I thought I'd feel better afterwards. A tad bit of relief. I feel nothing. I feel empty. I feel horrible. Hense the reason I want my strength to deminish.
He and I have been through so much aka my depression. His family is amazing...grrrrr....I totally and completely suck.
On somewhat of an up side...there's going to be some changes made. I guess I'm going to embrace this. I'm going to stay single for awhile. Deal with my commitment phobia. Because I'm beginning to think that I have a severe issue with commitment. I need a hug...o_o.
I need to run.