Hug?

[adasama]

Well... My Japan, my concerts now are one big ''?'' Im so fuckin sad because of that... don't have money, even if I will go to work and earn enough I cant go because I need this money now! (tickets etc...) So.. I thought that my dreams come true but it happened only once- in Paris... and never again...

And please tell me:
Why?
Why he is so perfect, huh?
Why I love him so much?
Why I don't live in Japan?
Why Im so stupid fangirl O_o?

and this pic kills me -> http://img27.imageshack.us/img27/97/fyfyp1.jpg

hate myself?