Today it hurts even more.
So. I've been up since like nine this morning, and today has already gotten much, much worse.
I was supposed to take a drug test today for a job at Applebees, but now, no one will call me back about this. So glad I spent the entire month not smoking weed, and spent 130 dollars on a urine cleansing something or other, for an opportunity that may or may not happen. Great. I really, really want this job, and unfortunately, I really, really need this job as well. More on why I need it in the paragraph below.
So we recently got a third roommate. Well... we got someone who was interested in our room and told us that she would be moving in at the end of the month. Zach, my roommate, recieved a text from her last night super early in the morning saying that she isn't going to move into the room any longer. Double Great. So, while this sucks, I mean, it is kinda good as well. It works because it doesn't change the dynamic between us in the apartment - but it also sucks because we need the money, and WE ALREADY CHANGED AROUND THE ENTIRE APARTMENT. We moved the living room to the middle room (which is the size of a shoebox) moved my bedroom out to the living room. So the 2nd bedroom is essentially cleared out now. It took us two days. And now that means nothing.
I know at times like this you need to keep faith. And I have faith in my god, and I know that even if this is a trying time in my life where I am being tested, I still have it so much better than a lot of the world. I have a family that loves me, friends who support me, and a sense of self that is very strong. I know who I am, and in NYC, where followers dwell, that is something I am very proud of.
All this being said, I still can't believe this is my life at 24 years old. I am unemployed, uneducated (as in I don't have a college degree), and living in the most expensive shithole in America.
Not much more I can say than that.
I was supposed to take a drug test today for a job at Applebees, but now, no one will call me back about this. So glad I spent the entire month not smoking weed, and spent 130 dollars on a urine cleansing something or other, for an opportunity that may or may not happen. Great. I really, really want this job, and unfortunately, I really, really need this job as well. More on why I need it in the paragraph below.
So we recently got a third roommate. Well... we got someone who was interested in our room and told us that she would be moving in at the end of the month. Zach, my roommate, recieved a text from her last night super early in the morning saying that she isn't going to move into the room any longer. Double Great. So, while this sucks, I mean, it is kinda good as well. It works because it doesn't change the dynamic between us in the apartment - but it also sucks because we need the money, and WE ALREADY CHANGED AROUND THE ENTIRE APARTMENT. We moved the living room to the middle room (which is the size of a shoebox) moved my bedroom out to the living room. So the 2nd bedroom is essentially cleared out now. It took us two days. And now that means nothing.
I know at times like this you need to keep faith. And I have faith in my god, and I know that even if this is a trying time in my life where I am being tested, I still have it so much better than a lot of the world. I have a family that loves me, friends who support me, and a sense of self that is very strong. I know who I am, and in NYC, where followers dwell, that is something I am very proud of.
All this being said, I still can't believe this is my life at 24 years old. I am unemployed, uneducated (as in I don't have a college degree), and living in the most expensive shithole in America.
Not much more I can say than that.