funky..
I'm sitting here, listening to music, in generally a good place. I didn't work too much today, I met a couple new women this week who seem interesting (though nothing yet has developed beyond a couple of phone calls and some emails), work is ok.. I'm a little stressed about my first presentation that's coming up to the entire senior staff (~15 Senior Directors and above for the entire company across all our business units).
However beyond all that which has its own feelings attached, I have this weird funk I am feeling, like I'm depressed or subdued, not sure I can really describe it. I do know though that it needs to get out of my head, it is making me want to drink and high and stupid very stupid silly.. It could be xmas, it is hard to tell..
I don't have much to celebrate any xmas holiday, but I've tried to put on a good face, bought my assistant a sizable gift card, bought the other two assistants in the office smaller gift cards, gave all three of them some chocolate. Bought my boss, and my three directs presents, and I hung up some xmas lights around the outside (and inside) of the house. Yet, the funk persists, I can't pin down the cause, and it is bugging me.
Oh well, I'm sure I'll get over it eventually, I'd just rather not be burdened by feelings, emotions, and stuff that is negative, depressing and unpleasant if that makes any sense (of course it does, duh :)
Anyway.. just some randomness I had to post, someday I'll look back at this and go "ah it was this thing that made me feel that way." and it'll probably make all the sense in the world, or maybe not..
However beyond all that which has its own feelings attached, I have this weird funk I am feeling, like I'm depressed or subdued, not sure I can really describe it. I do know though that it needs to get out of my head, it is making me want to drink and high and stupid very stupid silly.. It could be xmas, it is hard to tell..
I don't have much to celebrate any xmas holiday, but I've tried to put on a good face, bought my assistant a sizable gift card, bought the other two assistants in the office smaller gift cards, gave all three of them some chocolate. Bought my boss, and my three directs presents, and I hung up some xmas lights around the outside (and inside) of the house. Yet, the funk persists, I can't pin down the cause, and it is bugging me.
Oh well, I'm sure I'll get over it eventually, I'd just rather not be burdened by feelings, emotions, and stuff that is negative, depressing and unpleasant if that makes any sense (of course it does, duh :)
Anyway.. just some randomness I had to post, someday I'll look back at this and go "ah it was this thing that made me feel that way." and it'll probably make all the sense in the world, or maybe not..