Oct 03, 2004 21:25
Today has been long. I woke up early because people always call about buying my car but no one wants it still. It's been kind of lonely considering I have been in my house by myself all day. I have actually been studying though which is crazy for me. I think this is the second time I have ever really studied for a test in college. It's for philosophy of religion and I'd like to do good. It's kind of weird how the more I do stuff the more I realize I just don't belong. Everywhere i go lately I feel like a blue banana in the bunch. I don't know if its a good thing or bad. I have alienated myself recently from pretty much everyone I don't consider a good friend because I hate small talk and I give excuses, but the majority of the people I meet I just hate. Like at work. There isn't really anyone that I work with who I would call up and everyone who comes in are all pretty much assholes. I have incredibly low standards for the human race. Everyone is disappointing. I have a feeling that this lack of interaction and relationships won't be good in the long run but I just don't see where I fit in anymore. I need a phone card. I'm gonna make an awesome website so we better get a show since the benefit one didn't work out. It was good to see Tim and Adrian on Friday. Different, but fun nonetheless. I hope they can come down for the Halloween party. If you read this then you are probably invited. It should be a good time. I know what I'm gonna be!