On and On i go.
Like Always, ill just sit here and type to waste my worthless time.
Man - Took a big punch in the throat today, Woke up and started to realize that i am alone. and that i hate being alone. Not Spiritually, or Mentally, But Physically. I hate waiting to grow up - i hate being young. i just want to hold you, and make you feel safe. and i can't do it. i sleep alone, i dream alone. Most guys don't really want what i want, and i feel proud to be one of the rare few. And if you don't know which few i'm talking about, Let me Explain. Theres a few types of guys - I could actually put names in here to help you figure it out. Ok, Robbie is a good example of a typical guy. k, was going out with someone, cheated on her with someone elses girlfriend, then tried to get with someone else. then ran back to the first one, and tried to repeat. k, thats your basic, fagface cheating guy. Then you got the guys who try to get with you for sex, just sex, and nothing else. i don't want to name this kids name cuz he's a good friend, but i think i'll talk to him about it. I mean, I have no right what-so-ever to give sex advice, or advice out of the blue, but when you notice when someones going down the wrong track, it wouldn't help if i gave them a boost in the right direction. if they don't listen, they don't listen. And almost every guy doesn't listen. Then you have guys - which is the rare breed of guys. Wouldn't dare rush into sex, wouldn't dare rush period. Remembers everything, and is more of a romantic type, than a cheating nonlistening type. And i don't Understand what females want from a guy. it seems they like option 1 - 2, more than 3. And 3, altho, rare, and might sound a bit gay, is a good choice. if you want a bestfriend, instead of a sexually active relationship. then you best keep your standerds up. cuz lowering your standerds for a guy that just has a good outside appearance is retarded. prolly one of the biggest mistakes you can make.
Now on another hand - you have girls. few types of girls, and i don't really want to go into details, but most all girls are confusing, and most all girls are more on the sensitive side. But then you got the ones that don't show you emotion, or a hint of cares. I do believe in fate, and i do believe that there is one special someone out there for each of us, and you got to keep your head up, and keep looking, searching, and caring for everyone, and not just a few people. cuz you could be shutting out the true love for yourself. There is no reason to look back on past mistakes, but there is no reason to forgive someone for hurting you so bad. so bad that it scars your mind, and you feel sick, and you feel like your so alone that you won't ever find someone. But your wrong. Your always wrong. You'll meet someone, you'll be happy without your past feelings. i know by experiance. and i can say i'm alone now, but i won't be forever. There will always be someone there to keep you up, to keep you happy. And you can't forget your friends, or your family. You can remember your memories, and you can enjoy your thoughts. Just don't give up hope for others. Just don't shut other people out. Fighting is worthless, fighting is Pointless. acting like something your not, acting like someone you want to be, saying shit you want to say to make people notice, dressing for show. If you don't grow up out of the "all about you stages" how do you expect to carry on a relationship, Sure we're all young, and some of us grow out of it. but then, some of us don't, and you don't take my words seriously. You can say i give shitty advice, but i say fuck you for judging my advice. Atleast i have enough heart to sit here and try to help others. And to help others that are more needy than i am. I'll give you a little glimpse of my life. You try to live with parents that are sick, unhealthy, you try to live with family that does drugs, no jobs, no life, you try to be like me, and try to help other people out so they don't turn out as bad as i did, or as fucked up as i did. i have you all fool'd, and i'll keep you all fool'd forever. Untill you can finally see into the real me. Take a closer look. You might have me figured out for now. but you'll see my true colors one day. You'll see the real me, and i hope your proud. Cuz as i give you this advice, as i live my life alone, I bleed the blackest blood inside, and i cry the blackest tears you'll ever see. And i live, to only be loved by a special someone. Fate will catch me when i'm not looking.
Not Finished yet, Still - life is the most confusing, ongoing, repeatitive thing ever. and i get so sick of it all the time, And i don't know what to do most of the time. You live for love, but love can be pain. so you live to be hurt. Why would you want to live to be hurt, You might say you have to look past the pain, and the suffering, But it all rounds out to PAIN AND SUFFERING. how can you look past it. You feel pain, just as i feel pain. Even when things are going great there is something always to bring you down, You can't look up on things, you can't just look past it. You can tell me it will be ok, when i know that right now everything is not ok, and i don't know why. I can't figure anything out on my own anymore, and i hate taking life step by step, i want to leap into the bitter bliss of the greatest things possible. But is love Possible, or is it a myth. Love is a feeling, but do you feel it forever. Love is suppose to be the greatest feeling ever, but pain is the worst feeling you can ever feel. But will your true love ever make you hurt? Maybe your true love will clear your mind, your soul, your pain. Love is a risk, made to be taken. it can cause hurting, and suffering, but it can be the best thing you ever try to do. And if you don't try to love, you can't live your life.
But then again - You'll get brought down by people that refuse to love. Love, Life, Pain, Suffer, FATE. You can't deny fate, you can't not believe in fate.. Jesus' Fate was to die for our sins, to forgive us when we did/do wrong. and we give him nothing in return. Our fate is to love one another, to be there for one another, not to fight, war. Fuck America. How can we do right, when everything we do is wrong.
Man - Took a big punch in the throat today, Woke up and started to realize that i am alone. and that i hate being alone. Not Spiritually, or Mentally, But Physically. I hate waiting to grow up - i hate being young. i just want to hold you, and make you feel safe. and i can't do it. i sleep alone, i dream alone. Most guys don't really want what i want, and i feel proud to be one of the rare few. And if you don't know which few i'm talking about, Let me Explain. Theres a few types of guys - I could actually put names in here to help you figure it out. Ok, Robbie is a good example of a typical guy. k, was going out with someone, cheated on her with someone elses girlfriend, then tried to get with someone else. then ran back to the first one, and tried to repeat. k, thats your basic, fagface cheating guy. Then you got the guys who try to get with you for sex, just sex, and nothing else. i don't want to name this kids name cuz he's a good friend, but i think i'll talk to him about it. I mean, I have no right what-so-ever to give sex advice, or advice out of the blue, but when you notice when someones going down the wrong track, it wouldn't help if i gave them a boost in the right direction. if they don't listen, they don't listen. And almost every guy doesn't listen. Then you have guys - which is the rare breed of guys. Wouldn't dare rush into sex, wouldn't dare rush period. Remembers everything, and is more of a romantic type, than a cheating nonlistening type. And i don't Understand what females want from a guy. it seems they like option 1 - 2, more than 3. And 3, altho, rare, and might sound a bit gay, is a good choice. if you want a bestfriend, instead of a sexually active relationship. then you best keep your standerds up. cuz lowering your standerds for a guy that just has a good outside appearance is retarded. prolly one of the biggest mistakes you can make.
Now on another hand - you have girls. few types of girls, and i don't really want to go into details, but most all girls are confusing, and most all girls are more on the sensitive side. But then you got the ones that don't show you emotion, or a hint of cares. I do believe in fate, and i do believe that there is one special someone out there for each of us, and you got to keep your head up, and keep looking, searching, and caring for everyone, and not just a few people. cuz you could be shutting out the true love for yourself. There is no reason to look back on past mistakes, but there is no reason to forgive someone for hurting you so bad. so bad that it scars your mind, and you feel sick, and you feel like your so alone that you won't ever find someone. But your wrong. Your always wrong. You'll meet someone, you'll be happy without your past feelings. i know by experiance. and i can say i'm alone now, but i won't be forever. There will always be someone there to keep you up, to keep you happy. And you can't forget your friends, or your family. You can remember your memories, and you can enjoy your thoughts. Just don't give up hope for others. Just don't shut other people out. Fighting is worthless, fighting is Pointless. acting like something your not, acting like someone you want to be, saying shit you want to say to make people notice, dressing for show. If you don't grow up out of the "all about you stages" how do you expect to carry on a relationship, Sure we're all young, and some of us grow out of it. but then, some of us don't, and you don't take my words seriously. You can say i give shitty advice, but i say fuck you for judging my advice. Atleast i have enough heart to sit here and try to help others. And to help others that are more needy than i am. I'll give you a little glimpse of my life. You try to live with parents that are sick, unhealthy, you try to live with family that does drugs, no jobs, no life, you try to be like me, and try to help other people out so they don't turn out as bad as i did, or as fucked up as i did. i have you all fool'd, and i'll keep you all fool'd forever. Untill you can finally see into the real me. Take a closer look. You might have me figured out for now. but you'll see my true colors one day. You'll see the real me, and i hope your proud. Cuz as i give you this advice, as i live my life alone, I bleed the blackest blood inside, and i cry the blackest tears you'll ever see. And i live, to only be loved by a special someone. Fate will catch me when i'm not looking.
Not Finished yet, Still - life is the most confusing, ongoing, repeatitive thing ever. and i get so sick of it all the time, And i don't know what to do most of the time. You live for love, but love can be pain. so you live to be hurt. Why would you want to live to be hurt, You might say you have to look past the pain, and the suffering, But it all rounds out to PAIN AND SUFFERING. how can you look past it. You feel pain, just as i feel pain. Even when things are going great there is something always to bring you down, You can't look up on things, you can't just look past it. You can tell me it will be ok, when i know that right now everything is not ok, and i don't know why. I can't figure anything out on my own anymore, and i hate taking life step by step, i want to leap into the bitter bliss of the greatest things possible. But is love Possible, or is it a myth. Love is a feeling, but do you feel it forever. Love is suppose to be the greatest feeling ever, but pain is the worst feeling you can ever feel. But will your true love ever make you hurt? Maybe your true love will clear your mind, your soul, your pain. Love is a risk, made to be taken. it can cause hurting, and suffering, but it can be the best thing you ever try to do. And if you don't try to love, you can't live your life.
But then again - You'll get brought down by people that refuse to love. Love, Life, Pain, Suffer, FATE. You can't deny fate, you can't not believe in fate.. Jesus' Fate was to die for our sins, to forgive us when we did/do wrong. and we give him nothing in return. Our fate is to love one another, to be there for one another, not to fight, war. Fuck America. How can we do right, when everything we do is wrong.