Things are looking up (somewhat)
Had a fantastic dinner at Bonhoeffer House last night. One of the residents made curry to go over pasta or rice, one of the guests brought goulash and pie for desert, and a good time was had by all. (I believe Ryan counted 15 people!) I spent last night and the previous night nice and toasty warm in a brand new sleeping bag the guys got as a donation and which Ryan gave me Monday night. I love him! 😀
I'll be spending tonight and possibly tomorrow night at a motel. My friend Kevin is taking me to see his pastor today -- she's already agreed to pay for the room.(Ryan's going to get in touch with one of his ministry brothers who works for an organization that can help me find housing.)
About the housing... it may be a group home, which I'm not crazy about, partly because residents share rooms and I like my privacy; the rent will eat up most of my check; and most important, it'll likely take me away from east Dallas and the friends I've made here. (I told Ryan about all these concerns and I'm sure he'll let Jonathan know.)
Dammit -- I've managed to finally find a place where I feel like I belong, and I might be taken away from it! 😢 Ryan asked me last night if I'd rather be on the streets in the middle of a North Texas winter just to be close to everyone. If you really want an honest response... at this point, YES!!!! Why wouldn't I want to be where I know people and I know they love and care about me? That's why I came back to east Dallas to begin with. It's familiar, and I still have a friend here from before I left. Why would I want to go someplace where I don't know anyone? (Trying to find shelter with a Glambert is different -- I feel like y'all are my family too. Yeah, well, it makes sense to me.)
So. I have a decision to make and fast. I also have to take into consideration all that people are doing on my behalf -- Ryan, Kevin, and Pastor Deborah. I don't want to feel, and I don't want them to feel like I'm throwing all their time and effort back in their faces. So what do I do?
I'll be spending tonight and possibly tomorrow night at a motel. My friend Kevin is taking me to see his pastor today -- she's already agreed to pay for the room.(Ryan's going to get in touch with one of his ministry brothers who works for an organization that can help me find housing.)
About the housing... it may be a group home, which I'm not crazy about, partly because residents share rooms and I like my privacy; the rent will eat up most of my check; and most important, it'll likely take me away from east Dallas and the friends I've made here. (I told Ryan about all these concerns and I'm sure he'll let Jonathan know.)
Dammit -- I've managed to finally find a place where I feel like I belong, and I might be taken away from it! 😢 Ryan asked me last night if I'd rather be on the streets in the middle of a North Texas winter just to be close to everyone. If you really want an honest response... at this point, YES!!!! Why wouldn't I want to be where I know people and I know they love and care about me? That's why I came back to east Dallas to begin with. It's familiar, and I still have a friend here from before I left. Why would I want to go someplace where I don't know anyone? (Trying to find shelter with a Glambert is different -- I feel like y'all are my family too. Yeah, well, it makes sense to me.)
So. I have a decision to make and fast. I also have to take into consideration all that people are doing on my behalf -- Ryan, Kevin, and Pastor Deborah. I don't want to feel, and I don't want them to feel like I'm throwing all their time and effort back in their faces. So what do I do?