Insight!
It felt good to get all those feelings out. I honestly didn't know that such biter bile flowed through me. A pretty shocking revelation on my part and it showed me that I was handling the situation all wrong. The way I was handling it goes against who I am. I mean I try not to be a hateful heartless person. It took me awhile to see where the problem was and how to fix it. I am an amateur bible scholar and know full well what the good book says about vengeance. Taking it into my own hands is like playing with dynamite (not my cat of the same name). It only blows up in your hand and costs you your hand or in this case your soul. The right thing to do is just to forget it all and steer clear of those situations. Forgiving a grudge that has had this much of a hold on me won't be easy but I figure it is the only way. I was giving these people power over me even many years after it happened. A lawsuit wouldn't fix that and it would just piss everyone off. The only thing to do is let go. It just seemed like I was using it as a crutch. It seemed so easy to blame them for everything wrong in my life. If I can't move on then it is my fault. Our past doesn't make our future. Our past has no power over us. It only has the power that we give it. Being mad about solves nothing but only makes things worse. I used to believe that whole-heartedly and I guess I needed to practice what I preached. It will be a struggle but the best things in life are.
I also wanted to clarify what I said about bars. I like bars because they usually have pretty good food. I have friends who are social drinkers and that is cool with me. I know they are responsible and I respect them just as much as I do a non-drinker. People are unique and unique is great. My family (back before the divorce) used to visit "Bucher's Club 24" outside of Summum, IL. We'd never drink anything alcoholic there just eat the food. It was actually really nice as bars go. It is basically the closest bar since Astoria is a dry town apart from the American Legion.
Proth Morphing Vial was released today on Anatheria/Kenopets. I am stalking the apothecary on Market Island trying to snag one for my gallery. I have one of every item on the site except 2. I lack Snowman Plushie and Proth Morphing Vial. A Proth is a frog-like pet. It resembles a frog. Shops restock once an hour but the forums are usually pretty fun.
I added Achilles and Vesta today on Bella Sara. Achilles was on the bottom of my pile until I noticed something that moved him right to the top. He has an arrow stuck in his heel. I wondered if it would transfer to the site and it did. Poor guy. Vesta is gorgeous and spotty. I think I ma up to 7 horses on there. I will likely add my final 2 (Ceres and Eirene) tomorrow. For the record both cards gave me 25 horseshoes so I am up to 237 total Horseshoes. 225 are from the cards and 12 are from playing the games. I have screenshots of each horse in their stable and I'll gladly give them to anyone who asks. I have screenshots of...
Urania
Nike
Cybele
Opis
Achilles
Vesta
I have no screenshots of Peter since every user starts out with him. He is kinda cute though since he is brown and has one white sock. I still have snail-mail to write and garbage to take out. I'm out for the night.
I also wanted to clarify what I said about bars. I like bars because they usually have pretty good food. I have friends who are social drinkers and that is cool with me. I know they are responsible and I respect them just as much as I do a non-drinker. People are unique and unique is great. My family (back before the divorce) used to visit "Bucher's Club 24" outside of Summum, IL. We'd never drink anything alcoholic there just eat the food. It was actually really nice as bars go. It is basically the closest bar since Astoria is a dry town apart from the American Legion.
Proth Morphing Vial was released today on Anatheria/Kenopets. I am stalking the apothecary on Market Island trying to snag one for my gallery. I have one of every item on the site except 2. I lack Snowman Plushie and Proth Morphing Vial. A Proth is a frog-like pet. It resembles a frog. Shops restock once an hour but the forums are usually pretty fun.
I added Achilles and Vesta today on Bella Sara. Achilles was on the bottom of my pile until I noticed something that moved him right to the top. He has an arrow stuck in his heel. I wondered if it would transfer to the site and it did. Poor guy. Vesta is gorgeous and spotty. I think I ma up to 7 horses on there. I will likely add my final 2 (Ceres and Eirene) tomorrow. For the record both cards gave me 25 horseshoes so I am up to 237 total Horseshoes. 225 are from the cards and 12 are from playing the games. I have screenshots of each horse in their stable and I'll gladly give them to anyone who asks. I have screenshots of...
Urania
Nike
Cybele
Opis
Achilles
Vesta
I have no screenshots of Peter since every user starts out with him. He is kinda cute though since he is brown and has one white sock. I still have snail-mail to write and garbage to take out. I'm out for the night.