Family problems!
This will blow over probably. I had a bad day though. I woke up about 1:00 PM (no work today Yay!) but my dad had already taken the car. We never really know where he goes with it and there is no way to actually contact him when he is gone. My mom had gotten him a cell phone a long time ago but he lost it and somehow the bill went over $1,000. He had mentioned getting cell phones since prepaid minutes are a bit annoying. But.. more about today. Anyways my dad comes back and wamts more money... He's like deperate for it. I wasn't listening too well but it seems that this woman tried to commit suicide and didn't have any place to go. Anyways he needed money to buy her some anti-suicide meds. I mean it is money we don't have. He tries so hard to help everyone. Anyways he left again and my grandmother said that he was moving the woman into the new house. I mean there isn't any electricity there. Well that put both of us in orbit. My grandmother called a friend looking for other accommodations for this woman. Anyways he brought the woman over here a little but I basically stayed in my room. It turns out that she did find another place to stay. Her name is Nicole Lopez though apparently she doesn't look Mexican. I am a little ashamed to admit it but my biggest fear is that she would steal stuff (Not because she is Mexican... I love Mexicans.. I just have issues about strangers in the house. I realize this is stupid because Neither my dad or I have anything worth stealing anymore.) A good thing that material possessions don't matter. I feel that he is down a self destructive path. I mean he likes helping people which is great... I mean it is great if you have the means to keep your bills paid and still help them within your means.
Things got worse. I was really pissed off over the whole thing and my grandmother kept bothering me. She wanted me to bring the trash cans up to the house but it had been raining and I didn't want to get my shoes on. I have a nice pair of slippers but I still rebelled a little. I didn't get the lids and told her that I wouldn't get the lids and to do it herself. Basically she has bad arthritis in her hip now and can hardly walk. We were yelling back and forth but before she left I yelled "My Dad better get better or I will kill him myself!" Which basically hurt her deeply. It has been like 5 hours and she hasn't said anything then again she did say "You couldn't have hurt me any more if you had stuck a knife in my heart." Oh well. Hope we are still going to Macomb tomorrow. I need to go to the ISP and get my internet paid for. I wish there was a local place that did DSL. I think the problem is that I am spending way too much time here. I mean when I had electricity at the house I was away from this place 10 to 12 hours a day. Man I miss those days. We just spend too much time together. I miss my room even if it is very cold there now. I already had the internet removed from there... Even turning the power back on won't help.
It would be divine if I could just get away from here. Away from this town and these problems. It would be easy. I am just terrified of change even if it is for the best. At this rate I figure I will lose everything anyways and I am just a short distance from being kicked to the curb. Whatever happens happens.
I was wondering what the song is that plays during the opening credits of "Journeyman". I also noticed the same song playing during the movie trailer of "Hitman". It is an instrumental version of some song I know but I can't place it. It bothers me. Like a memory I can't grasp.
Things will get better. Mental illness is a bad thing.. I just wish I could convince my dad that he needs help before he brings himself further problems.
Things got worse. I was really pissed off over the whole thing and my grandmother kept bothering me. She wanted me to bring the trash cans up to the house but it had been raining and I didn't want to get my shoes on. I have a nice pair of slippers but I still rebelled a little. I didn't get the lids and told her that I wouldn't get the lids and to do it herself. Basically she has bad arthritis in her hip now and can hardly walk. We were yelling back and forth but before she left I yelled "My Dad better get better or I will kill him myself!" Which basically hurt her deeply. It has been like 5 hours and she hasn't said anything then again she did say "You couldn't have hurt me any more if you had stuck a knife in my heart." Oh well. Hope we are still going to Macomb tomorrow. I need to go to the ISP and get my internet paid for. I wish there was a local place that did DSL. I think the problem is that I am spending way too much time here. I mean when I had electricity at the house I was away from this place 10 to 12 hours a day. Man I miss those days. We just spend too much time together. I miss my room even if it is very cold there now. I already had the internet removed from there... Even turning the power back on won't help.
It would be divine if I could just get away from here. Away from this town and these problems. It would be easy. I am just terrified of change even if it is for the best. At this rate I figure I will lose everything anyways and I am just a short distance from being kicked to the curb. Whatever happens happens.
I was wondering what the song is that plays during the opening credits of "Journeyman". I also noticed the same song playing during the movie trailer of "Hitman". It is an instrumental version of some song I know but I can't place it. It bothers me. Like a memory I can't grasp.
Things will get better. Mental illness is a bad thing.. I just wish I could convince my dad that he needs help before he brings himself further problems.