Life After Raleigh
I'm pretty somber and depressed right now, but it feels like life was trying to be nicer to me today. Starbucks was pretty empty when I walked in today to order some tea, and when I turned away to add some milk (you know, English style), Dan, the manager my name and asked if I would like to be their customer of the week. How could I refuse a free drink and a polaroid picture of myself?
Later on in the day Andriana, a girl that works at Dos Coyotes recognized me when I came in and greeted me by name (which was not the first time that she's done that). We chatted for a few minutes about nothing in particular, but the attention was nice.
Those were the best moments of my day, now maybe there's nothing special about either of them, but if fate was trying to step in and cheer me up a little bit, then I guess that's the least it could do, because right now I'd say fate fucking owes me. I still can't get over the fact that Raleigh is gone, and for no reason at all. I last saw him on Saturday night when I was on my way up to the cabin and he seemed fine. He was down at my feet just as happy to see me as always. I had trouble waking up on Sunday morning, but Raleigh didn't wake up that morning at all. He wasn't looking out the window when I when my Mom and Dad's last night, he wasn't at the door, he was just gone, and the house seems emptier without him.
I don't know what to do. I've been in a bit of a daze since yesterday evening. I made a salad for dinner and haven't even touched half of it. I just want to get in bad and stay there all day. It just sucks.
Later on in the day Andriana, a girl that works at Dos Coyotes recognized me when I came in and greeted me by name (which was not the first time that she's done that). We chatted for a few minutes about nothing in particular, but the attention was nice.
Those were the best moments of my day, now maybe there's nothing special about either of them, but if fate was trying to step in and cheer me up a little bit, then I guess that's the least it could do, because right now I'd say fate fucking owes me. I still can't get over the fact that Raleigh is gone, and for no reason at all. I last saw him on Saturday night when I was on my way up to the cabin and he seemed fine. He was down at my feet just as happy to see me as always. I had trouble waking up on Sunday morning, but Raleigh didn't wake up that morning at all. He wasn't looking out the window when I when my Mom and Dad's last night, he wasn't at the door, he was just gone, and the house seems emptier without him.
I don't know what to do. I've been in a bit of a daze since yesterday evening. I made a salad for dinner and haven't even touched half of it. I just want to get in bad and stay there all day. It just sucks.