Back to work
Tomorrow is my first day back to work following my vacation. The rumor sites suggest that there could be some interesting developments by morning. No comment except to say that I'll see tomorrow if anything comes to pass or not. It will be nice to get back to work, but there is something that I think I've decided over the weekend. I just turned 25, and I really don't know what I want to do. I hadn't thought about that a whole lot lately because when you get down to it, life right now is pretty good. I have a great place to live and good people I live with--well, Andrew is a good person to live with (we'll just leave it at that)--work is good and I do have a good job and colleagues at one of the most innovative companies, and my social life is pretty good, if perhaps lacking in one key area i.e. the boyfriend... but with all that said, I still don't know what I want to do.
It seems to me that I would probably have that nailed down right now. I mean, there are things that somewhere down the road I'd like to have. They're pretty intangible right now, more ideas than anything else, but they're the ideas that form the trappings of a happy life for the other quarters of a century: a partner, kids, family, in the short term I'm seeing myself wanting a Jeep Grand Cherokee in there too, and while all those are nice things to have, I'm beginning to think that I should start to be doing more to prepare for all that. Yes, I'm working and that's stable, but there that degree that's looming every further away the more time I wait, but what's it going to be in. I can't answer that question anymore. At one point in time I used to be able to. Now I can't. I'm not upset; I'm not depressed, but I would like to start resolving to change some things and get some forward motion going on other fronts. The big question remains though--where do I begin?
It seems to me that I would probably have that nailed down right now. I mean, there are things that somewhere down the road I'd like to have. They're pretty intangible right now, more ideas than anything else, but they're the ideas that form the trappings of a happy life for the other quarters of a century: a partner, kids, family, in the short term I'm seeing myself wanting a Jeep Grand Cherokee in there too, and while all those are nice things to have, I'm beginning to think that I should start to be doing more to prepare for all that. Yes, I'm working and that's stable, but there that degree that's looming every further away the more time I wait, but what's it going to be in. I can't answer that question anymore. At one point in time I used to be able to. Now I can't. I'm not upset; I'm not depressed, but I would like to start resolving to change some things and get some forward motion going on other fronts. The big question remains though--where do I begin?