Still Waiting
This month has been going really well. I started hanging out with Jeff. And it's been pretty awesome. But of course when things are going fine, I have to complicate shit.
I'm trying uber hard to explore this "hey, let's just have fun" without complicating shit. But guys with attractive personalities grow on me like a fungus and its like I have to slow down the process by telling myself "take shit slow and don't get caught up or sprung to hard".
I think I need to do some mind reprogramming.
Last night we went to a club rave and my level of possesivness heightened when he flirtatiously smiled at a girl across the dance floor. It sucked cause I totally felt like an old lunch sack thats been sitting in the closet lolll.
Why? Why do I have to be like this? It pisses me off cause I know how unattractive it is.
I'm going to TRY to keep trucking it out and see were things go. No stress. I just dont like being in a constant battle with my subconscious mind.
I'm trying uber hard to explore this "hey, let's just have fun" without complicating shit. But guys with attractive personalities grow on me like a fungus and its like I have to slow down the process by telling myself "take shit slow and don't get caught up or sprung to hard".
I think I need to do some mind reprogramming.
Last night we went to a club rave and my level of possesivness heightened when he flirtatiously smiled at a girl across the dance floor. It sucked cause I totally felt like an old lunch sack thats been sitting in the closet lolll.
Why? Why do I have to be like this? It pisses me off cause I know how unattractive it is.
I'm going to TRY to keep trucking it out and see were things go. No stress. I just dont like being in a constant battle with my subconscious mind.