Jul 10, 2005 16:53
Dinner on day two was much as filling as it was the night before; cornbread, beef pot pie, chicken dumplings, and more corn. Nana already asleep in her bed, Adam on the porch, a Corona in one hand and Laramie's ear in the other. Soft touch allowed him to message the dogs ear, Laramie lavishing in it. Gaze to the stars, a sweet grin on his lost face
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"No, no. I... I wanna get this out... It's..."
He cleared his throat, nodding as he gathered the events in his head. He chewed on his bottom lip softly, brows casually furrowing in thought. His voice was plain, normal as ever.
"There... was, ah, this ... circus... Um, they're called Demon Town Circus'. Dark an' gothic type, haunted house is all morbid an' stuff. I snuck in one night when I was eighteen, fresh outta High School. I, uh... I ran into this... weird maze. Music was loud... hard metal, gothic metal. I remember that someone scared me, so I ... I turned left instead of right, an' found myself in somethin' they called 'The Pit'... Lotta kinky stuff down there. I remember all... all of these... faces..."
He paused, face red as a beet, serious. He had to explain. Why he prayed during sex. Why he was how he was sometimes... Why.
"Dark, so ... frightening t' this innocent boy... I was... terrified. An' I remember lookin' t' the couch... an' there... There was my physics teacher... Just... sittin' on the couch between two people. He was... in what he normally wore t' teach. Stupid tweed vest an' linen shirt, grey slacks... It... was like... God knew this was going t' happen. Instead of makin' me learn a horrible lesson of why you don't disobey... He placed Donovan there, an angel there just for me. T' protect me. Sappy, an' stupid, I know..."
Chuckling nervously. His dark moments from his childhood relived in his mind. They'd reached the barn, passing it slowly in thier walk. The wooded area before them was dark, eerily inviting. Like the hidden path begging hikers to take it.
"An', um. He asked me if I wanted t' leave... I don't know why I didn't say yes. But I sat on the couch with him... We talked all night until the sun was about t' come up. Talked about all kinds of teen stuff. Why I hated Brian Kilmer, playground asshole. Why I... I crushed on some boys an' if that was alright. He gave me a ride home before my parents woke up... Week later... I went back... Found him there again."
Into the woods, farther beyond the sanctity of Nana's property.
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That he was safe. WIth her.
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"I did this weekend after weekend, just... meetin' him there, talkin'. ... One night I asked him what havin' sex was like."
Chuckling softly, shaking his head.
"You think I blushed bad. Poor Donovan. Then... He.... He asked t' show me."
Silent for a long moment, chewing again at his bottom lip.
"I was so scared... but I ... I said yes. They had these back rooms set up. He was real nice 'bout it. Always askin' if I would rather not 'r if he could do somethin' t' ease it all. He pulled up somethin' on the wall. Said he didn't want people t' see. Fer my sake."
Eyes to the dirt path at his feet.
"It hurt. Not bad, but... I didn't think it was gunna be so hard. It... So nervous, man. He kept askin' if I wanted t' stop, if I was a'right. I just wanted t' go. T' feel that kind of safety knowin' that I lost it t' a guy who cared 'bout how I was. Cared 'bout what I thought."
His gut twisted, feeling rather dirty at the thoughts in his head.
"I remember... Thinkin' that I was gunna go t' hell for this. Fer being so... dirty. I sinned. But... It.... It felt so good. T' release like that. The wall fell down. There was... a two way mirror... I went. Hard. Everyone watchin'. Was..."
He stopped, letting go of her to hug himself. To look away. He remembered why he didn't want to tell her. He didn't want his perfect little name ruined. To have her see him as a kink or a pervert.
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"Adam?'
Asked so softly, her head canting to one side.
"I understand this was an amazing turning point in your life and that it has had an influence on everything you have done since but..."
Moving closer, caressing his back gently with her hand before wrapping her arms around his waist, leaning in to kiss his spine.
"Do you think this will change anything of how I feel for you?"
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"Thank you. I... I havn't told anyone that. Not even Andy..."
Looking at her, softly smiling, so much weight no longer on his shoulders. A large chunk of the black water evaporating into the sky. He sighs softly, kissing her cheek.
"That... That's why I pray... D-dur-ring sex... Makes... Makes me feel like... like I'm... doin' somethin' bad.... It's the thrill that gets me along with whom..."
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"You know, I should be offended,' she murmurs, pulling back and looking up at him. 'You just told me you needed more of a thrill to get yourself off while balls deep in me... I really should be hurt. Oddly enough? I'm more wondering if you'll wear a priest frock next time.'
Looking at him with wide innocent eyes, lips parted as she tries to mix innocence with sex.
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"I... I needed t' get that off m'chest. Th-Thank... you..."
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"So, hmm, do we get to get into my kinky fantasies one night then? And.. I was kidding. I even have this latex nun costume I could wear. Tie me up with rosaries? Or better yet? I could tie you up and tell you how nasty you are.'
Whispering the words, purring them out in her best sex voice.
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"That's... wow... "
The trees were growing somewhat thinner now, the flicker of lightning in the background.
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Sliding his hand up his back, fingers tangling into his hair.
"What? Don't like the idea of doing penance on your knees before me? Hmm?'
Tugging a little at his hair, gentle hard as she tugs him head towards her, kissing him even as she walks.
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"Emma... Ever seen Children of the Corn?"
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And then his words. And...
"UHmm, no. Why? Planning to kill me now?'
Arching a brow, tones droll, teasing.
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"Then you wont panic if we run through that field?"
His voice hushed, playful. Eyes lit up eagerly, wanting so much to just run scremaing into the feild.
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Staring at Adam as if he had lost his mind.
"I'm talking hot, kinky, amazingly filthy sex and you.. you're wanting to... "
Stunned, jaw dropped, open, lost.
"I... Why? Why would I want to do anything like that? I mean, what is the point?"
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"Becuase it's the hot, kinky, amazingly filthy sex in the cornfield without waking up the neighbor that I was implying... Emma..."
A metter of factly, tugging at her hand before carefully crawling down to the dirt, inching forward so as not alert the man of them too early.
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"So... you expect me to be wild, expect to say your prayers and stay quiet enough to not wake up anyone?"
Grinning wider at this, tugging back on his hand enough so her other hand can glide over his hip, just fleetingly caressing the fly of his jeans.
"My poor baby dying without it?"
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