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Okayy. A week and a half of school done. I'm a mess. Last week, I spent essentially the entire week crying. I don't even know. I'd just be in the shower, singing and dancing, and burst into tears. My dad asked me to do the dishes, I cried. Anyway, I know that most of the reason I'm so sad is because I miss *him*. So Friday, I told my mom I was going to walk to the school he's working at now(mile away), and she was like LULZ NO. But since they work for the same school district, my mom emailed him and we ended up meeting up with him to have pizza Friday night ;3 And jesus fuck, I missed him. When I first saw him, and he smiled, I literally got weak in the knees. I can't even. So we ate and such, and talked about school and life and everything, but it was just over too fast:( I used to spend like 3 hours a day with him, and this is the first time I've seen him in 3 months. I just..dsfjdsbf. So we hugged & left. And I will flail over the hug okay, because I can. KJbnfdskjbsd. He's so muscular and he ALWAYS smells fucking amazing and I'm just like dsfdsfb whenever I hug him. So i was all happy and shit Friday night and Saturday..and now today I'm just like :( again. Because I probably won't get to see him again for a while, and I need him. I know I just sound crazy but I feel like I could be with him forever and be perfectly happy with that. He's like the only person that can make me smile when I'm having a bad day, the only person who can calm me down, the only person I just want to be around no matter what my mood is. I mean, I guess if it's meant to be it'll all work out in the end, but right now, it just fucking sucks.
anyway, i should go do homework, since i've failed to start my gov frq yet..