Going to Seattle, etc.
Well, I'm going to Seattle tomorrow and will be there until the 7th (unless something changes). It seems like my grandmother is going to die. Sucks. I don't know what to say, it's just what happens, everyone gets old and dies. I wonder what will happen to my grandpa now, in a way I'm more concerned for him. I don't even know what to say, ultimately everyone faces death and is whatever's left (or whatever you believe is left) goes where it goes - the body going to the grave and ultimately returning to earth from whence we all came (indirectly), all that jazz. I'm not religious so I can't say "they've gone on to a better place" like I think there is some sort of heaven. I wouldn't say I'm a strict materialist but I would say that if there is anything other than the material aspect we know nothing definitive of it.
Anyways, that's pretty much it. I am basically wasting time lately - I'm unemployed, I moved back home to Florida, I don't have a car and haven't been up to much of anything. I sometimes wonder if there is a soul, and if I've lost it - in the sense of maybe having passions and a strong will to live life to the fullest. I guess lately I haven't been depressed in the sense of despondent or sad or whatever, but I can't seem to gather up much enthusiasm for doing anything. I have been thinking of applying for English teaching jobs in Japan but have not been making much headway on writing up the documents. I have a sort of resume but it's not quite finished, and I've have about 3 half written attempts at cover letters on my computer. At least I'm maintaining my level of fitness somewhat, but other than that I am in a rut. Such is life.
Anyways, that's pretty much it. I am basically wasting time lately - I'm unemployed, I moved back home to Florida, I don't have a car and haven't been up to much of anything. I sometimes wonder if there is a soul, and if I've lost it - in the sense of maybe having passions and a strong will to live life to the fullest. I guess lately I haven't been depressed in the sense of despondent or sad or whatever, but I can't seem to gather up much enthusiasm for doing anything. I have been thinking of applying for English teaching jobs in Japan but have not been making much headway on writing up the documents. I have a sort of resume but it's not quite finished, and I've have about 3 half written attempts at cover letters on my computer. At least I'm maintaining my level of fitness somewhat, but other than that I am in a rut. Such is life.