Yukio Mishima was a guro freak
I started reading "Confessions of a Mask" by Yukio Mishima recently. Now I've read some incredibly weird and perverted things... I have lots of hentai manga and doujin on my hard drive. I've read part of "The Claiming of Sleeping Beauty". Mishima EASILY tops it all but in perversity but is totally unerotic for me (as a straight man). It's amazing that it came out in 1948. I imagine if it had come out in America or Europe (well, nobody would have published it but anyway) that Mishima would have been put in some nasty jail or mental institute. In Japan, you write a novel about your gay guro fantasies and become a legend! His suicide death is absolutely foretold by this book. It's all gay guro fantasy.
Amazingly he manages to even make a guro scene out of watching the waves crash at the beach. I AM TOTALLY NOT KIDDING. Now that's just amazing.
Interestingly enough, today I had a weird experience. I was sitting next to the only available girl in the class and I started having fantasies. I think it must be pheremones and general lack of sexual outlet as she's a Christian and quiet and a modest dresser... I sat farther away and they all went away. Weird. Definitely something odd is going on there, probably related to smell.
In other news, I'm in Falcon. We had an oral test on Tuesday and I got a A- so things are going pretty well. I'm pretty busy. The fall colors are out, it's pretty, life is completely consumed by the study of Japanese. I've been hanging out with anime club people a bit.
Now for a cut:
I heard parts of a very, VERY annoying radio broadcast today. It was on public radio and it was a fluffy speech calling for resistance to American imperialism and for peace on earth. Ahh, left wingers, every time the president does something that makes me wish he would please just die in an accident before things get any worse you guys have to remind me of how much I hate you too. Now, I'm all for love and peace and certainly Bush and so on don't have totally pure motives for the Iraq war but I must point out again and again the same thing: where is the justice for the oppressed when we stand by and let oppressive regimes do as they wish? In Iraq the Kurds, Shiites, and many other groups faced repression and murder at the hands of Saddam. I suppose that's OK? What do have you peaceniks and your "international cooperation" done for Dafur for that matter? I guess in the peacenik world we can drive our Priuses and be clean without having to consider what is happening in repressive regimes. What do you guys suggest, huh? I sincerely want to hear it. I can't stand empty rhetoric. Your words are denial and your path leads nowhere.
If we are to believe in Justice or Freedom the words have to mean something concrete and they can't simply be something we can afford with our money. If these ideas mean anything they must mean something outside of the borders of the US as well. Otherwise it's just empty capitalism and self gratification and you should just admit it instead of cloaking it in words like "peace".
Also, our lovely president just signed a bill legalizing torture. God I hate the right, those scum. Nationalism trumps any humanism or acknowledgement that people that don't speak Engish are human too. Behind "safety" and once again, the most raped word in US politics, "freedom" we have torture and surveillence. Rights are stripped away and it's justified with "they're the enemy". Those are my rights too. What's the point if the US ends up as free as Iraq was before this stupid adventure?
All of this leads nowhere but in any case I won't accept the lies of either side. I don't believe nations are benevolent, I don't believe in justice on this earth, at this point I believe the only thing a person can do is live doing what is right and try hard to stay off the radar of the goons. Freedom is not being noticed whether it's in Iraq or America, the stakes are just much higher elsewhere. All the fighters think they are doing right, but I can no longer see where this morality and righeousness lies. Surely people like the Facists or Salafi muslims or fundamentalist christians must be opposed but I'm not sure how anymore. Violence is the path of darkeness but without effective resistance only death is left for those of us who don't fit their ideas.
I'm no chistian so it doesn't mean much but Jesus was more right about this stuff than anyone. I guess maybe the Buddah's depressing philosophy is also close to the mark. The truth is that nothing and nobody in this world is of unmixed good or evil. We have to live with this reality so I guess I should just look to the beauty in the ugliness.
Amazingly he manages to even make a guro scene out of watching the waves crash at the beach. I AM TOTALLY NOT KIDDING. Now that's just amazing.
Interestingly enough, today I had a weird experience. I was sitting next to the only available girl in the class and I started having fantasies. I think it must be pheremones and general lack of sexual outlet as she's a Christian and quiet and a modest dresser... I sat farther away and they all went away. Weird. Definitely something odd is going on there, probably related to smell.
In other news, I'm in Falcon. We had an oral test on Tuesday and I got a A- so things are going pretty well. I'm pretty busy. The fall colors are out, it's pretty, life is completely consumed by the study of Japanese. I've been hanging out with anime club people a bit.
Now for a cut:
I heard parts of a very, VERY annoying radio broadcast today. It was on public radio and it was a fluffy speech calling for resistance to American imperialism and for peace on earth. Ahh, left wingers, every time the president does something that makes me wish he would please just die in an accident before things get any worse you guys have to remind me of how much I hate you too. Now, I'm all for love and peace and certainly Bush and so on don't have totally pure motives for the Iraq war but I must point out again and again the same thing: where is the justice for the oppressed when we stand by and let oppressive regimes do as they wish? In Iraq the Kurds, Shiites, and many other groups faced repression and murder at the hands of Saddam. I suppose that's OK? What do have you peaceniks and your "international cooperation" done for Dafur for that matter? I guess in the peacenik world we can drive our Priuses and be clean without having to consider what is happening in repressive regimes. What do you guys suggest, huh? I sincerely want to hear it. I can't stand empty rhetoric. Your words are denial and your path leads nowhere.
If we are to believe in Justice or Freedom the words have to mean something concrete and they can't simply be something we can afford with our money. If these ideas mean anything they must mean something outside of the borders of the US as well. Otherwise it's just empty capitalism and self gratification and you should just admit it instead of cloaking it in words like "peace".
Also, our lovely president just signed a bill legalizing torture. God I hate the right, those scum. Nationalism trumps any humanism or acknowledgement that people that don't speak Engish are human too. Behind "safety" and once again, the most raped word in US politics, "freedom" we have torture and surveillence. Rights are stripped away and it's justified with "they're the enemy". Those are my rights too. What's the point if the US ends up as free as Iraq was before this stupid adventure?
All of this leads nowhere but in any case I won't accept the lies of either side. I don't believe nations are benevolent, I don't believe in justice on this earth, at this point I believe the only thing a person can do is live doing what is right and try hard to stay off the radar of the goons. Freedom is not being noticed whether it's in Iraq or America, the stakes are just much higher elsewhere. All the fighters think they are doing right, but I can no longer see where this morality and righeousness lies. Surely people like the Facists or Salafi muslims or fundamentalist christians must be opposed but I'm not sure how anymore. Violence is the path of darkeness but without effective resistance only death is left for those of us who don't fit their ideas.
I'm no chistian so it doesn't mean much but Jesus was more right about this stuff than anyone. I guess maybe the Buddah's depressing philosophy is also close to the mark. The truth is that nothing and nobody in this world is of unmixed good or evil. We have to live with this reality so I guess I should just look to the beauty in the ugliness.