Thank you. *puts her hands in his hair because he likes how it feels with such short hair now* My nose feels weird with these new contacts but I feel suave.
*holds her close* Is there any way I help, sweetheart?
*strokes over his hair, a little half-smile on her face* You look suave.
*wraps her hands into his shirt, her face buried against his chest as she tries not to freak out completely* I'm okay. It's okay. It's all gonna be okay. Really.
*frowns and strokes her back* It will be okay. I promise. *frowns more* I love you, okay? We won't even be apart for the first week. *quietly* It's not too late to ask me to stay.
*kisses him back* You're welcome. It's the truth, you know. *presses her forehead to his*
I know. *nods* Okay. I know. I love you too. *nods more* I know. It's the after the first week that makes my heart pound. *looks up at him seriously, tears in her eyes, but not falling* I'd never ask you to stay. You need this. We need this. *even if she doesn't fully believe it* I need to realize I can live without you with me constantly. You need to be away from London and spread your wings.
*half-laughs* Tell me not to get desperate and move back in with my parents?
*buries his nose in her neck* I believe you, even if you are biased.
*smiles a tiny bit* It wasn't meant to be a test of our relationship. I didn't think we needed that. I didn't mean that. *kisses her again* I would stay if you wanted me to, but I want to move there so much right now.
*smiles* Please don't do that? Move in with Evan before that. Come to Italy before that!
*laughs softly* I am biased... but if I wasn't, you'd be worried I didn't love you.
I know. That's not what I meant... I'm not-- *sighs, frustrated with herself* I'm not being clear, I'm not speaking correctly. I'm serious. I need to realize I can survive without you right beside me every time I turn, right? That I can breathe without you, even when it feels like I can't... And you NEED to go while you're still young enough and not tied down by babies and house payments and... me and my expectations of our life.
I would... if I needed to move in somewhere, I'd go live with Uncle Evan. He's the only person other than you that I can fall apart completely with and know there's no consequences. *smiles just a little* Yeah, if I need to move out, I'd probably wind up in Italy... likely jobless, because if I wind up there, I won't be able to leave you again.
I would never be worried you didn't love me. Promise. *holds her even tighter*
Darling? I would never feel tied down by you or those those. I would never feel tied down by your expectations of our life, rather I'm excited to one be able to fufill them. To give you everything that I have the power to do so. But honestly? Milan is just a city. No city can keep us apart.
*nods* Good. Do come to me whenever you need to fall apart though. I don't mind dropping everything for you. *strokes her cheek* Oh Em. We'll make it through. I'll floo home every night to you. I'll cut some of Clawsy's fur for you..
Good. I'd never be worried you didn't love me either. *snuggles closer, her arms wrapping around his chest*
*shakes her head* You say that now... but you might. If you didn't go now, you would, eventually. You said yourself you want to live there. What kind of monster would I be if I begged you not to? *nods* It won't keep us apart. Just... don't find some beautiful Italian girl and fall in love while you're there, okay? *said teasingly, but she's not really teasing all that much, because she DOES worry about that kind of thing*
I will. But only when I know you aren't busy. I'd hate to drag you away from Milan for my minor little freak-outs. *curls her face into his hand* I know we will. And you don't even have to cut Clawsy's fur.
You'd never be a monster. We both trust our relationship, I bet this will make it grow even more. *laughs* What girl could I possibly find more beautiful than you? None exsists ever. *winks, he means it seriously* And you want some handsome man while I'm gone will you?
I'll never be too busy for you. Come everyday, every hour, every second. Hey? I love you. And so does Clawsy.
I could be. But I choose not to be. *nods* Perhaps it will. Perhaps it will tell us why being apart is a ridiculous idea. Every time we've done it in the past, one or the other of us has fallen apart a little bit. I admit it's usually me. *shakes her head* Italian women are supposed to be so very beautiful. I promise, if you find one you love, I won't make you come home. *shivers a little at the idea* I don't even look at anyone but you, ever.
You'll have your work there. Your life. I'll just be the little girl pining away at home for you. *almost-teasing* I love you too, Adam. I always have. And I love Clawsy immensely.
You don't really think any of that do you? You don't really think I look at anyone but you or that I'd find an Italian girl. I don't even speak Italian well. Imagine how confusing that relationship would be?
*pulls back from her* Emma Grace, listen to me. My life? Its you. My dreams? That's you too. My heart? You. My priorities? You. What I think about every second of every day, awake or asleep? You. Are you sensing a pattern? To me? You're the best thing I could ever have. You are not just some little girl to me.
I think that people change. And I'm simply saying if you do... I'll understand. *turns her head, trying to hide the now falling tears*
*drops her eyes* I'm sorry. I know, I'm hysterical over something completely ridiculous. It's just... this is the first time you've ever wanted to be away, and it terrifies me that you might... grow away from me while you're gone.
*tries to laugh* I was a horrible mess every time I left you for school too. I just hid it better. I'll be fine. You know that.
*pulls her tightly into his embrace, his pleading eyes glued to her*
It's not going to happen. Why would I want anyone else when I've got you? You've owned my heart since I was 8 years old, my darling. No matter where either of us go, my heart is always going to be with you. My work might be in Milan, but heart will be in London with you.
*frowns* I'm sorry you were a mess I never knew it. This time, I'm going to hold you and not let go until you believe me, that I'm not leaving you, that I'll never love anyone else.
I don't know. People do, sometimes. People hurt each other and fall out of love and a million other things. It's the way the world works. *looks up at him pitifully* Promise? Please?
I didn't want you to know. I didn't want you be upset. *curls tighter against him* Don't ever let go?
*holds her even tighter, hopefully not hurting her*
People do all those things yes, but not us. Falling out of love with you would be comparable to death as far as I know. *kisses her deeply, he hates that look on her beautiful face, he hates that this hurts her so much* I promise you, Emma. I promise.
Never hold back because you're afraid it might upset me. Promise? *picks her up in his arms, his arms around her shoulders, her legs around his waist* Never.
*almost whispers* I'm not. Ready. But it's time.
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*holds her close*
Is there any way I help, sweetheart?
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*wraps her hands into his shirt, her face buried against his chest as she tries not to freak out completely* I'm okay. It's okay. It's all gonna be okay. Really.
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Thank you, love.
*frowns and strokes her back* It will be okay. I promise. *frowns more* I love you, okay? We won't even be apart for the first week. *quietly* It's not too late to ask me to stay.
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I know. *nods* Okay. I know. I love you too. *nods more* I know. It's the after the first week that makes my heart pound. *looks up at him seriously, tears in her eyes, but not falling* I'd never ask you to stay. You need this. We need this. *even if she doesn't fully believe it* I need to realize I can live without you with me constantly. You need to be away from London and spread your wings.
*half-laughs* Tell me not to get desperate and move back in with my parents?
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*smiles a tiny bit* It wasn't meant to be a test of our relationship. I didn't think we needed that. I didn't mean that. *kisses her again* I would stay if you wanted me to, but I want to move there so much right now.
*smiles* Please don't do that? Move in with Evan before that. Come to Italy before that!
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I know. That's not what I meant... I'm not-- *sighs, frustrated with herself* I'm not being clear, I'm not speaking correctly. I'm serious. I need to realize I can survive without you right beside me every time I turn, right? That I can breathe without you, even when it feels like I can't... And you NEED to go while you're still young enough and not tied down by babies and house payments and... me and my expectations of our life.
I would... if I needed to move in somewhere, I'd go live with Uncle Evan. He's the only person other than you that I can fall apart completely with and know there's no consequences. *smiles just a little* Yeah, if I need to move out, I'd probably wind up in Italy... likely jobless, because if I wind up there, I won't be able to leave you again.
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Darling? I would never feel tied down by you or those those. I would never feel tied down by your expectations of our life, rather I'm excited to one be able to fufill them. To give you everything that I have the power to do so. But honestly? Milan is just a city. No city can keep us apart.
*nods* Good. Do come to me whenever you need to fall apart though. I don't mind dropping everything for you. *strokes her cheek* Oh Em. We'll make it through. I'll floo home every night to you. I'll cut some of Clawsy's fur for you..
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*shakes her head* You say that now... but you might. If you didn't go now, you would, eventually. You said yourself you want to live there. What kind of monster would I be if I begged you not to? *nods* It won't keep us apart. Just... don't find some beautiful Italian girl and fall in love while you're there, okay? *said teasingly, but she's not really teasing all that much, because she DOES worry about that kind of thing*
I will. But only when I know you aren't busy. I'd hate to drag you away from Milan for my minor little freak-outs. *curls her face into his hand* I know we will. And you don't even have to cut Clawsy's fur.
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You'd never be a monster. We both trust our relationship, I bet this will make it grow even more. *laughs* What girl could I possibly find more beautiful than you? None exsists ever. *winks, he means it seriously* And you want some handsome man while I'm gone will you?
I'll never be too busy for you. Come everyday, every hour, every second. Hey? I love you. And so does Clawsy.
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I could be. But I choose not to be. *nods* Perhaps it will. Perhaps it will tell us why being apart is a ridiculous idea. Every time we've done it in the past, one or the other of us has fallen apart a little bit. I admit it's usually me. *shakes her head* Italian women are supposed to be so very beautiful. I promise, if you find one you love, I won't make you come home. *shivers a little at the idea* I don't even look at anyone but you, ever.
You'll have your work there. Your life. I'll just be the little girl pining away at home for you. *almost-teasing* I love you too, Adam. I always have. And I love Clawsy immensely.
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You don't really think any of that do you? You don't really think I look at anyone but you or that I'd find an Italian girl. I don't even speak Italian well. Imagine how confusing that relationship would be?
*pulls back from her* Emma Grace, listen to me. My life? Its you. My dreams? That's you too. My heart? You. My priorities? You. What I think about every second of every day, awake or asleep? You. Are you sensing a pattern? To me? You're the best thing I could ever have. You are not just some little girl to me.
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I think that people change. And I'm simply saying if you do... I'll understand. *turns her head, trying to hide the now falling tears*
*drops her eyes* I'm sorry. I know, I'm hysterical over something completely ridiculous. It's just... this is the first time you've ever wanted to be away, and it terrifies me that you might... grow away from me while you're gone.
*tries to laugh* I was a horrible mess every time I left you for school too. I just hid it better. I'll be fine. You know that.
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It's not going to happen. Why would I want anyone else when I've got you? You've owned my heart since I was 8 years old, my darling. No matter where either of us go, my heart is always going to be with you. My work might be in Milan, but heart will be in London with you.
*frowns* I'm sorry you were a mess I never knew it. This time, I'm going to hold you and not let go until you believe me, that I'm not leaving you, that I'll never love anyone else.
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I don't know. People do, sometimes. People hurt each other and fall out of love and a million other things. It's the way the world works. *looks up at him pitifully* Promise? Please?
I didn't want you to know. I didn't want you be upset. *curls tighter against him* Don't ever let go?
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People do all those things yes, but not us. Falling out of love with you would be comparable to death as far as I know. *kisses her deeply, he hates that look on her beautiful face, he hates that this hurts her so much* I promise you, Emma. I promise.
Never hold back because you're afraid it might upset me. Promise? *picks her up in his arms, his arms around her shoulders, her legs around his waist* Never.
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