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when something doesn't work out the way you want it to, what do you do?
sulk?
despair?
deny that it didn't work?
forget that it didn't work?
try harder to make it work?
today, i did something i thought i could never do. for the longest time, i've longed for the golden fleece. i wanted her for myself. she's the holy grail. but i've learned that it may never happen. i've learned that whatever i do, it won't work.
now comes acceptance. i surrender. i'm just happy that she's existent. and i'll always be thankful that she IS.
i've deleted a lot of messages today. i think i'd never have the strength or courage to do so. this is my self-therapy. i know that this action will not really do much but it's a start.
i have to live.
i have to be happy.
and so, i'll be. .(=
sulk?
despair?
deny that it didn't work?
forget that it didn't work?
try harder to make it work?
today, i did something i thought i could never do. for the longest time, i've longed for the golden fleece. i wanted her for myself. she's the holy grail. but i've learned that it may never happen. i've learned that whatever i do, it won't work.
now comes acceptance. i surrender. i'm just happy that she's existent. and i'll always be thankful that she IS.
i've deleted a lot of messages today. i think i'd never have the strength or courage to do so. this is my self-therapy. i know that this action will not really do much but it's a start.
i have to live.
i have to be happy.
and so, i'll be. .(=