spoken word
when you meet a group of people whether you've known them forever and you grow apart all it takes is one night to make that connection that you felt when you first met...tonight was one of those nights...i talked to alex for 2 and a half hours...i love that tarzan look-alike...and all the other people that are there for me...even people that ive had differences with in the past are now cool...im working my way up the chain and trying to make amends with everyone...ryan is one of the top...i just want us to be cool and just say fuck it to whatever it is that is keeping us apart...serial is another...i just want to drop all that shit and just have my maggie back...im tryin but its hard...i made amends with plenty of people in the past few months that it makes me want to go up to everyone that i have ever come in contact with and show them that im not the fucking asshole that they met back in the day...that im not that cocky fucking emo kid that they knew a few years ago...that im not like that anymore and dont plan on going back...i want them to meet the kid that is excited to start school...hopefully continue the awesome relationship i have with adey...ill get to her in a minute...and just the kid that is excited to make something of himself and prove that im not what everyone thinks i am...whether its through actions and seeing for themselves or through word of mouth...i mean fuck it...ive become one of the most peaceful kids since all the shit with my mom and since starting yoga and reki sessions and meditation and what not...so fuck it i just want to be cool with everyone and not have drama with anyone...and if i do...talk it out and figure out ways around our problems
now...Adey...this girl is a punch in the face to what i thought was a relationship...we connect on so many different levels its not even funny...i mean now i feel stupid for dating whoever and just pretending to be happy with gettin high and drunk almost everynight...and now i found a girl with ambition and intelligence...and someone i can just vibe and feed off their good vibes, conversation, and company...hopefully the fact that we are both scared that we feel so much in such a short period of time wont effect this...that kinda happened with ryan and i...we moved too fast and it kinda took over both of us...and that fucked up our friendship which sucks...but with this girl...its different we feel the same way about so many things that its freaky...but i dig it...her mom is a sweety but scary...her brother is cool as fuck...and a pimp cause he has a fro...and those are always bad ass...lol...but we can both show each other different parts of life...i brought her into my world with all my friends and the way we are and how tight all of us are and now im waiting for her to show me her world and hopefully both of our worlds can combine and form one huge cluster fuck of a family...she just puts a smile on my face either if i havent talked to her today yet or not...all i do is just picture those eyes and how she smiles and laughs and im good for the day
one line from sage describes us perfectly...
me and you are different girl, we dont even need wings to fly. keep on singin give it a try give it a try
but you know what
much love to everyone
one love, one life, one too many victims
peace, love, respect,
love always,
adam j.
thanks for skimmin that
now...Adey...this girl is a punch in the face to what i thought was a relationship...we connect on so many different levels its not even funny...i mean now i feel stupid for dating whoever and just pretending to be happy with gettin high and drunk almost everynight...and now i found a girl with ambition and intelligence...and someone i can just vibe and feed off their good vibes, conversation, and company...hopefully the fact that we are both scared that we feel so much in such a short period of time wont effect this...that kinda happened with ryan and i...we moved too fast and it kinda took over both of us...and that fucked up our friendship which sucks...but with this girl...its different we feel the same way about so many things that its freaky...but i dig it...her mom is a sweety but scary...her brother is cool as fuck...and a pimp cause he has a fro...and those are always bad ass...lol...but we can both show each other different parts of life...i brought her into my world with all my friends and the way we are and how tight all of us are and now im waiting for her to show me her world and hopefully both of our worlds can combine and form one huge cluster fuck of a family...she just puts a smile on my face either if i havent talked to her today yet or not...all i do is just picture those eyes and how she smiles and laughs and im good for the day
one line from sage describes us perfectly...
me and you are different girl, we dont even need wings to fly. keep on singin give it a try give it a try
but you know what
much love to everyone
one love, one life, one too many victims
peace, love, respect,
love always,
adam j.
thanks for skimmin that