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well hello again everybody...yea im doin this entry at 730 in the morning..i have been up since 500..i just couldnt sleep that much last night..i just had quite a long day yesterday ...well neways...yea yesterday didnt turn out as good as i thought..it turned out to be a complete disaster to be honest with you..and just to let u know "nina" if u get this...and u have to believe me cause i even told to this to katie last night....see when i called u name, i dont quite remember what the name was but i swear to god i thought i was talkin to cody..im not kidding nina..u can even ask katie..i was crying on the phone last night saying that i didnt know it was you..sometimes when theres 3 ppl using the same s/n i tend to forget who im talkin to half the time..i swear to god..i get lost really fast..the reason im saying this is because i barely know who u are and i would have no reason to call u a name..i mean u didnt really do nething to me....thats why im saying i thought it was cody..im serious nina...even angie knows i wouldnt call somebody that i kinda like names..that would make no sense please believe me nina..i mean if me and cody wouldve gotten along to begin with then none of the stuff wouldve happened yesterday..i swear im really srry this time...i just wanna be ur friend..if i wasnt srry yesterday i wouldve never even shed a tear..but i did totally opposite from that..i just wanna be that sweet guy that u said i was...and u were right i was being obsessive...ill admit i was..im not gonna lie..i mean it just felt good being liked by someone different..but u know what i messed up..i swear i have never thought so clearly in my entire life...u know what i made a mistake right?..but i can learn from that..i just got carried away..i mean i just got out of a long relationship and i was juss trying really hard to be happy and make the best out of everything...i guess i juss tried too hard :/ ..but i have alot of respect for u nina and u too katie and cody as well..but especially u nina ur a great person once i got to know u a lil bit..i just liked you for who u are, thats all there is to it...and just to let u know as well ..i was never desperate...with me it doesnt take all that much for to like somebody..u can ask katie and angie..i dated both of them on the first or 2nd day that i met them..thats just how i am..i just like ppl really fast..that doesnt mean im desperate..look, after me and katie broke up i was single for at least 8 months then i met angie and i went out with her the first day that i met her...and look i was single for 8 months....cause if u look at it...i kinda asked u out just about the same i did with angie....we talked on the computer for a while and then i met u later on that day...and i did the same thing with angie, i talked ot her on the computer and went out with her the next day...thats all it takes for me to like somebody nina..i just want u to understand that...u can ask katie or angie..id do nething to keep the relationship going..i know how to treat girls...believe me..the only reason that i "can" get obssesive is because i want them to feel good about themselves and special at the same time..but im not gonna ask u for another chance...but if u ever happen to change ur mind..and if u get to the point where u really hate being single...then im right here incase u change ur mind..not saying that u will...but incase u ever do..i mean u know my s/n and u have my phone numbers..but first things first..i just want all of us to be cool again..is that ok with you?..im asking you with everything i have...i understand u have alot of friends..but im sure u have room for one more..to me u would be a great friend nina..i do mean that...lets just pretend that we never went out ok?..actually lets just pretend that yesterday didnt even exist ok ...please? :{...but i am a nice and sweet person once u get to know me a little more..but again i thought it was cody the whole time..im not like katie that can type w/o looking at the keyboard lol...i wasnt really looking up at the screen till after i was done typing ..thats how i didnt know it was you..i never meant for u to get pissed at me..im tellin the the honest of god truth nina..the only reason that im goin on and on about this is because thats how much i really do care that we should be friends...i mean i let u gyys come to my house ..i was the one that told my mom that u guys should stay for dinner, cause i thought u might be hungry or something :} i was trying to be a good friend...but to make this short and sweet..can we be cool and be friends?..lets just start over today...well im gonna stop now...u can call my cell if u want..i got minutes so u can call me if u want to.i wont make you..or u can comment on here if u want....w/e u prefer to do lol...its all up to you..i just wanna be ur friend if thats ok wit you?...ttyl nina and u too katie