Warcraft Relapse

[adalar]

The other day I woke up and I just felt so empty, unmotivated and down on myself. I thought who was I kidding. Me? Try to become a writer, or try and achieve something worthy of recognition in my life? The idea seemed preposterous. The poetry I have been writing the last week all seemed like worthless tripe in my mind. So I decided I would be

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[dorcas]

Correction, you are a writer.

[adalar]

Some days I think I'm a writer, somedays I don't. Depends on how much alcohol / drugs I've taken, or whether I'm depressed or not.

[dorcas]

Well I always think you are. :p

[adalar]

:D Thanks, I'll try remember that when I'm feeling moody.

[sassycashew]

(This is cashewgirl's partner :) )

WOW, like most things in life, is addictive. I picked up the game a year ago to play with my younger brothers (andrew is doing his doctorate in Biology and Glen designs IT networks). I probably play it more than I should but enjoy the contact with family I only see every few years or so. My son also plays so I can help him out and spend some time with him online.

The people I have met through the game are a similar group to what I see here in the journals. We have a guild forum and discuss game and non game related topics. I was surprised to find quite a few people similar to myself (a rare thing indeed) and this interaction has been excellent for me as I don't have the personal freedom I used to have before kids.

When I find myself feeling at a creative low, a computer game is definitely what I least feel like getting into. I still write and find time for whatever project has possessed me this week :D

[adalar]

I love WoW, but I also recognise that I have an addictive personality so it's something that I need to try and stay away from. It's very tempting to play WoW because I can communicate and express myself much better through a virtual character than in real life, but there's always this nagging thing in the back of my mind when I play that game that I am actually achieving nothing of any value at all. It's the largest, brightest, shiniest hamster's wheel of all. It's so fun to run in that wheel and get caught up in the idea that you are actually moving forwards, but in my opinion World of Warcraft leads to nothing in terms of personal development or increasing one's position in life. I love the game, but I hate it to death.