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I don't know what it was about my last visit to Raleigh but its sticking a lot longer than the last visit. The first visit was almost too short, I saw him over New Years for a whole week but it was at his parents place and we can't really be ourselves there and I was in a weird funk from hanging out with Ala too much. but this last time. This last visit was JUUUUST Riiiight. I was there 4 1/2 days and 5 nights. We were busy with singing at church and stuff cause it was holy week but we still found time to just be us. It was quite lovely.
I had a dream the other day that I was far away from him against my will, like I was a prisoner servant person or something (I was definitely a captive). Anyway, one day when everyone was out a truck with a trailer passed by and I took my chance of escape. The guys wanted me to get off the truck so they didn't get in trouble for helping me but then I told them my sob story of being parted from my love (complete with tears) and they let me stay. The weird part was I was holding Ryu (my roommate's cat) I think and then Ein from Cowboy Bebop jumped in my other arm but they started fighting so I had to let Ein go...that part was weird. Soon we were at Andrew's farm. Cause he lived on a farm, it was more of a house on the border of a town with lots of land and he had a bunch of animals on it. Anyway, I called him from my cell phone and told him to go outside and we hugged and thanked the truck guys. And I cannot fully express my joy at being together with him and not having to worry about being apart anymore. I was home. It was such a strong feeling of joy that it has still stuck with me today and I think I had this dream Friday morning!
Also, we're singing a French song called "Au Bord de l'eau" (By the Water) by Faure in Women's choir and I sang it as a solo Junior year and loved it then too. I'm sure the poem is better in the context of French but its not so bad in English. I had sort of forgotten about it but she played a recording of Elly Ameling singing it in class and I was reading the poetry along with and I got tears in my eyes. The poem. Its just so...us.
To sit together on the bank of the flowing stream,
watching it flow;
together, if a cloud floats by in space,
to watch it floating by;
on the horizon if a thatched roof is smoking,
to watch the smoke;
if some flower is fragrant,
to bathe in its fragrance;
to listen, at the foot of the willow where the water murmurs,
to the murmuring of the water;
while this dream lasts, not to feel
the passing of time;
not feeling deep passion,
only adoring each other;
without concern for the disputes of the world,
to know nothing of them;
and alone together seeing all that grows weary
without wearying of each other;
to feel that love in face of all that passes,
will never pass!
I had a dream the other day that I was far away from him against my will, like I was a prisoner servant person or something (I was definitely a captive). Anyway, one day when everyone was out a truck with a trailer passed by and I took my chance of escape. The guys wanted me to get off the truck so they didn't get in trouble for helping me but then I told them my sob story of being parted from my love (complete with tears) and they let me stay. The weird part was I was holding Ryu (my roommate's cat) I think and then Ein from Cowboy Bebop jumped in my other arm but they started fighting so I had to let Ein go...that part was weird. Soon we were at Andrew's farm. Cause he lived on a farm, it was more of a house on the border of a town with lots of land and he had a bunch of animals on it. Anyway, I called him from my cell phone and told him to go outside and we hugged and thanked the truck guys. And I cannot fully express my joy at being together with him and not having to worry about being apart anymore. I was home. It was such a strong feeling of joy that it has still stuck with me today and I think I had this dream Friday morning!
Also, we're singing a French song called "Au Bord de l'eau" (By the Water) by Faure in Women's choir and I sang it as a solo Junior year and loved it then too. I'm sure the poem is better in the context of French but its not so bad in English. I had sort of forgotten about it but she played a recording of Elly Ameling singing it in class and I was reading the poetry along with and I got tears in my eyes. The poem. Its just so...us.
To sit together on the bank of the flowing stream,
watching it flow;
together, if a cloud floats by in space,
to watch it floating by;
on the horizon if a thatched roof is smoking,
to watch the smoke;
if some flower is fragrant,
to bathe in its fragrance;
to listen, at the foot of the willow where the water murmurs,
to the murmuring of the water;
while this dream lasts, not to feel
the passing of time;
not feeling deep passion,
only adoring each other;
without concern for the disputes of the world,
to know nothing of them;
and alone together seeing all that grows weary
without wearying of each other;
to feel that love in face of all that passes,
will never pass!