Aug 05, 2005 01:27
I'm really worried about my grandfather. He's killing himself. He had a gas-outage today and had to call the gas company and it ended up being a tree that had cut off the gasline. He spent an hour in the heat showing the workers what the problem was, and then they couldn't help him today.
He's living with my grandmother who has alzheimer's disease and he's so stressed out. My mom is in NC for the weekend so she and my father obviously couldn't help them. He called me and Joe didn't have a chain-saw to cut the tree up to move it from the line so the workers could repair the leak. ;_;
I'm so worried about him...
He even told me today that when he was in the heat for so long he was afraid that he'd have a heart attack (he had one 15 years ago,) because he felt so exhausted.
He's slowly killing himself and it distresses me. I wish he could/would admit defeat and let my grandmother go to a home. I know he wants to do all of this himself. He fought in WWII, he's a fighter, you know? Nothing is ever impossible in his mind, especially when it comes to his wife. He loves her so much, and she loves him...oh god now I'm crying. ;_; And he promised my grandmother that when she died she would be in the house...but that was 30 years ago before they knew that she would die in such a long, miserable way. Now I'm not so much afraid of losing her as I am losing him.
He's killing himself and he knows it, but his sense of duty and his own damned pride won't allow him to take my grandmother somewhere that they could take better care of her and he could visit her or move in. There are a lot of nice retirement homes in Macon that they could move to.
I wish they would. I love my grandparents. They used to have great "golden years". They travelled all over the world - Greece, Spain, Mexico, England, Amsterdam, etc. And they're now home bound. Her because of her disease, and him because he's too worried to let go of her and trust doctors and nurses to take care of her.
I wish I wish I wish...I wish I could do more than I can.