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so basicly this weekend was.... key word there... was good and now it is just plian crapy i flipping hate my family go flipping die in heck i hate you all i feel so unloved around them i just want to run away and live with the people that love me... mel or brookeann or alex or olivia i mean seriously my family doesnt go to flipping church they dont say i love you and mean it and they just plain suck butt but let me tell you about the good part of my weekend............
so friday i ditch vball... well i thouhgt i was and it turns out it didnt start till 3:30 so i couldnt go any whos... so we go to target and buy wife beaters and sharpies all the while we were talking to seth and then we text his mom so see if he could go to the track meet.... lol weird i knowww so we(olivia mel and i) pick up jessie and then go bac to get mom we go to the house i change and we leave to go pick up seth....... yeahhh hahaha weirdddd hahaha so anyways we drive and olivia is making our shirts that say I♥Alex like the i♥NY shirts hahah so im wearing mine and mel and i go up to seths door and then we say bye to his gma and go to the car so im like happy right then and we go to sonic and get drinks and then drive to the track meet right so we are there and like i introduce seth to everyone and stuff then we go to the throwing area and we found a tenis ball so we are playing catch and stuff and it was so fun and then we watch the last race or w/e and take pictures and stuff and then we leave olivia wen ton the bus so she could go to alex house so then mel and seth and i are in the car mel in the back and seth on the driver side me on the other i grab his hand.... :]]]]]]]]] this is all how it started and so we go to maciyos and seth and i are holding hand and he opens the door for us ahhgggg he is so nice and perfect and everything so we put in a reservation and go outside and we like act like freaks and stuff and then we eat and he is like holding my hand and stuff and i start to feel tired so i am like laying on my hand while they talk and he keeps nuging me to stay awake and then we finally leave and at this point i am feeling sick so he hold my hand and walks me to the car and opens my door :]] and then i get in and he goes around and gets in and we put up the seats and i am laying on him cuz i am tired and then we are driving and i dont feel good so i like pop up and i am liek mom i feel sick so she grabs me a back haha in case i throw up... so i lay back down and seth is being so nice and like holding my hands and rubing my back playing with my hair and then he kisses my forehead it was so dam nice even tho i was feeling like crap he made me so happy and i felt like nothing could be wrong... well cept haha i felt sick.... hahaha any whos he like kisses my forehead a couple times and we sadly get to his house :[[ so he gets out and i get out and walk like half way and he is like you dont need to walk me up haha so i was like okay and i give him a long hug and tell him sorry for being so lame hahaa and then i get back into the car and i lay down and text him like sorry or w/e but he is like no its fine you are so cute... hahaha yeahhh sooo basicly we text all that night and all sat and night and today and just like alot of talk about how i miss him and he misses me and how it is great to be wanted by the girl he likes :]]]]]]]]]]]]]] and like idk i just fridya was so great i seriously had one of the best nights ever i freaking like him so much love him like a friend but i am falling head over heels for him.... he makes me feel so cared about and so loved and just perfect so beautiful even if i look like sheeeee iiigghhhttt and just i feel so loved and cared for and like i miss him so much more now that like i had such a wonderful time with him and i just dont know what in the whole wide world i would do with out him.................... and of course today ........ at the top. but yeahh i just its hard to explain how i feel cuz ive never felt like the way i feel now it is a good feeling but i have never felt it so its hard to explain and i just wish i could be with the people i really want to be with melly or seth would make everything better i jussttt ugghhh dont understand my family and how retarded they are all the time... i would rather live with my friends sometimes and this now time is deff. one of them....... but hopefully i can get threw it and yeah i just cannot wait untill i see seth again i miss him so baddddddddd
so friday i ditch vball... well i thouhgt i was and it turns out it didnt start till 3:30 so i couldnt go any whos... so we go to target and buy wife beaters and sharpies all the while we were talking to seth and then we text his mom so see if he could go to the track meet.... lol weird i knowww so we(olivia mel and i) pick up jessie and then go bac to get mom we go to the house i change and we leave to go pick up seth....... yeahhh hahaha weirdddd hahaha so anyways we drive and olivia is making our shirts that say I♥Alex like the i♥NY shirts hahah so im wearing mine and mel and i go up to seths door and then we say bye to his gma and go to the car so im like happy right then and we go to sonic and get drinks and then drive to the track meet right so we are there and like i introduce seth to everyone and stuff then we go to the throwing area and we found a tenis ball so we are playing catch and stuff and it was so fun and then we watch the last race or w/e and take pictures and stuff and then we leave olivia wen ton the bus so she could go to alex house so then mel and seth and i are in the car mel in the back and seth on the driver side me on the other i grab his hand.... :]]]]]]]]] this is all how it started and so we go to maciyos and seth and i are holding hand and he opens the door for us ahhgggg he is so nice and perfect and everything so we put in a reservation and go outside and we like act like freaks and stuff and then we eat and he is like holding my hand and stuff and i start to feel tired so i am like laying on my hand while they talk and he keeps nuging me to stay awake and then we finally leave and at this point i am feeling sick so he hold my hand and walks me to the car and opens my door :]] and then i get in and he goes around and gets in and we put up the seats and i am laying on him cuz i am tired and then we are driving and i dont feel good so i like pop up and i am liek mom i feel sick so she grabs me a back haha in case i throw up... so i lay back down and seth is being so nice and like holding my hands and rubing my back playing with my hair and then he kisses my forehead it was so dam nice even tho i was feeling like crap he made me so happy and i felt like nothing could be wrong... well cept haha i felt sick.... hahaha any whos he like kisses my forehead a couple times and we sadly get to his house :[[ so he gets out and i get out and walk like half way and he is like you dont need to walk me up haha so i was like okay and i give him a long hug and tell him sorry for being so lame hahaa and then i get back into the car and i lay down and text him like sorry or w/e but he is like no its fine you are so cute... hahaha yeahhh sooo basicly we text all that night and all sat and night and today and just like alot of talk about how i miss him and he misses me and how it is great to be wanted by the girl he likes :]]]]]]]]]]]]]] and like idk i just fridya was so great i seriously had one of the best nights ever i freaking like him so much love him like a friend but i am falling head over heels for him.... he makes me feel so cared about and so loved and just perfect so beautiful even if i look like sheeeee iiigghhhttt and just i feel so loved and cared for and like i miss him so much more now that like i had such a wonderful time with him and i just dont know what in the whole wide world i would do with out him.................... and of course today ........ at the top. but yeahh i just its hard to explain how i feel cuz ive never felt like the way i feel now it is a good feeling but i have never felt it so its hard to explain and i just wish i could be with the people i really want to be with melly or seth would make everything better i jussttt ugghhh dont understand my family and how retarded they are all the time... i would rather live with my friends sometimes and this now time is deff. one of them....... but hopefully i can get threw it and yeah i just cannot wait untill i see seth again i miss him so baddddddddd