Jul 09, 2006 10:18
I'm just going to have to accept it and hope she see's the light after dating others and comes back to me. I will make everything work again i will be better then I was and you can be my princess and be treated like one. We wont argue anymore, I'll have more money, I'll be more spontaneous, we will go on more road trips, we can go to Canada and to six flags, I wont do the stuff you don't want me to do, I'll try my hardest to please you and your needs. I LOVE YOU vanesa and I want you in my life and no where else. I want you to love me back and want me like the old days where you would miss me after 8 hours of not seeing each other and text me to come home early from work so you could see me and we could go to target. where I could watch you sleep and wake you up with little kisses for you to say my breath smells and then we go and brush our teeth together. I miss everything we have had and everything we have done. Now you'll move on and do these things with other people and hopefully you still love me and realize that all these things are special to us and you come back to my loving arms and stay there for the rest of your life.
Today would of been our two year one month anniversary. I didn't even realize it until I enter this in and read the date. No wonder I had the strong erg to write this. Everyday on our anniversary we would do something fun. six flags,beach,shopping,and if we didn't do anything I would at least bring you out to eat. I miss all that and now I wish I never saw it was our anniversary because it's going to make me more depressed.=\
I do believe that we just needed a break so we could "see" other people and I have tried to "See" other people but it's too hard and I can not do it. I look at them and see something that reminds me of you even if it's a dimple or small ears or a cute little nose. I can't stop thinking of you ever and then every time I think of you I'll end up thinking of you with another guy. =-[ But it has to happen and I hope it's with a good guy at least and not a sleaze bag who want's to fuck you because your hott and Asian I hope he want's you for all the other sweet assets like your outrageous personality, your smile, your eyes, your kiss, you passionate side, your big warm heart, you outdoors men side, your adventurous side, your movie side, your little anger problems =-], your caring and your over caring, and the one I hop no one else see's your loving self =-\. You are beautiful in side and out and I love it and I love you.
and don't say forget her I can do better because then of course you do not know her or me. She is the best thing that HAS EVER happened to me. She helped me get back onto my feet and then she posted me up to the sky and i have been high off her love since i feeel in love with her that night that i woke up early and wacth her sleep making all these cute noise and wrapping her legs around me to pull me closer and when she woke up her eyes all glazed over and gave me that beloved kiss the little tap one so i wouldn't smell her breath =-]
I LOVE YOU VENESA VANNAVONG NGUYEN AND I WILL NEVER FORGET ANYTHING ABOUT US.