opened eyes
I never listen to music anymore. At least not like I used to. Now it's just party music in the car to remind me that there are weekend nights that are full of parties. It's sad that that's all I want to think about, ever really look forward to is party nights.
But now, I'm listening to all of these pretty things and they make me want to go out and create new memories and have fun experiences and meet people and love the people I love. I forgot about all these things, and life outside of stanford and my parents. And I'm happy I'm feeling this because 10 minutes ago I thought I wanted to give up everything/give up on all of my friendships and just start everything fresh in Japan. How silly. I love my relationships even though they aren't perfect. I need to make the best of my time left here at Stanford, in the US, becuase they're going to be gone so soon.
But now, I'm listening to all of these pretty things and they make me want to go out and create new memories and have fun experiences and meet people and love the people I love. I forgot about all these things, and life outside of stanford and my parents. And I'm happy I'm feeling this because 10 minutes ago I thought I wanted to give up everything/give up on all of my friendships and just start everything fresh in Japan. How silly. I love my relationships even though they aren't perfect. I need to make the best of my time left here at Stanford, in the US, becuase they're going to be gone so soon.