lets go back..back to the beginning
so..its friday the 13th..well on for another 8 mins or so...it def was a friday the 13th....work today was soo long it felt like....had a long talk with leo about pay raises...kinda felt bad......then came home..ate dinnner..went to return movies..met up with one of my favorite ppl in the world mary knooop!..hung out with her drove around to walgreens to get her pics..and then went to see megan carlson..went to tsc to use the bathroom? haha and then over to marys..hung out there and then went to see some of the girls at el parion..weird vibe..left there..almost killed myself driving home..i cant figure out the defrost button for the life of me.....found out that my neighbors mom died..she was like a grandma that we adopted..i dont understand why God takes people away from us...good people.......maybe its better..? well of course its better? but if it was that great of a place..then why do we all live and have to deal with the shit we have to deal with? iono i dont understand that stuff...i feel really disconnected with him right now..and i HATE that feeling..i went to all city campaigners last night and just didnt wanna be there at all..and thats not how it should be..i mean of course i have total faith in the Lord..but sometimes i feel like He gets placed on the back burner......:( iono .i wish it was last year again...summer time..and the livin was def. easy!..no job..just me n my best friends crusing around.........i miss some people from last summer..like crazy~! or i wish i was chillin at Lake Champion..where it felt like nothing could go wrong..excpet everyone getting hurt.everything reminds me of him..and i thought i moved on.........and i want to..and need to...iono..oh well..story of my life...i dont understand guys at all.....like serioulsy why are they so gosh darn confusing~!
tomorrow im working all day.........can't wait..and then a movie with alicia and stephanie..should be fun....steph got a jeep today..im way excited for her~!
so this entry had sooooo much rambling in it..sorry~! ive decided to forget the bad things in life..get rid of the negatives..and not letting stupid things guys do get to me..
school starts really soon!..the only good part is that we are going to be SENIORS!..bad part=ooh yeah leavin high school..forever..yeah forever..can't ever go back..thats going to be a reallllllllll shocker come next june for me...kinda excited..kinda nervous..kinda scared..but thats a long time..we are suppose to get schedules tomorrow..oH WHo's excited!!!!!!!
hope everyones summer is going greatttttttttttt!
I SHLOVE YOU!
//mo\\