Said you'd give me light but you never told me about the fire
another repost from myspace blog.
Still no call from him. I guess he quit caring if I was alright and not worried about if I'm sad or not. I'm too exhausted to be upset about it. I can't cry anymore, physically, I can't. I've looked like ass for the last two days and I just can't allow myself to wallow in this for another second just for my heath's sake. Work wasn't as bad today and my sweet sweet law student tried to help me feel better. There are plenty of factors in aiding my recovery. Annette took me for some tequilla and to see Lucky Number Slevin which was AWESOME!!!!!!!! I LOVED IT. And OH MY JOSH!!! He's so beautiful. Watching him and having a nice buzz at the same time was excellent and I also slept wonderfully when I got home. Then today, after an alright day at work, my law student was a sweet pea, and then Jt came and took me to Magazine Street where we had lunch and SO MANY LAUGHS it was ridiculous. We laughed ALL DAY and there was no alcohol involved. I SO LOVE making fun of "my field" and "via con dios my brother." As much as my friends and I buck heads about really stupid crap they ALWAYS come through for me in the end.
Jt is always talking about not having love and what's life without it but if what we do for our friends isn't love, I don't know what is. I was feeling very similar until tonight. I want love and I get it, sometimes it's not from the person I'm asking for it from but I have it. It's everywhere, all around me, and I promise to remember that next time I'm having a break down. Thanks everybody.
And as far as my "game plan" still up in the air but for now I'm just going to try and concentrate on me and getting better. I've been listening to A LOT of Fleetwood Mac lately. Another great song but this time from Lindsey.
Go Your Own Way
Loving you
Isn't the right thing to do
How can i ever change things
That i feel
If i could
Maybe i'd give you my world
How can i
When you won't take it from me
You can go your own way
Go your own way
You an call it
Another lonely day
You can go your own way
Go your own way
Tell me why
Everything turned around
Packing up
Shacking up is all you wanna do
If i could
Baby i'd give you my world
Open up
Everything's waiting for you
You can go your own way
Go your own way
You an call it
Another lonely day
You can go your own way
Go your own way
Unfortunately that blog was written like 2 days ago and I'm not feeling quite so chipper. I'm shocked and sad and crushed and any other colorful adjetive that means completely miserable that he hasn't tried to get in touch with me. I mean, is this how he plans on leaving it???
I talked to an old friend today, it made me feel a teensy weensy bit better. I'm supposed to go out but who knows. I'm tired but god damnit my hair looks good. anyway, I have a feeling everyone is just going to flake out on me right now. It sucks. I don't know if I'd mind besides the fact that I spent 25 bucks on my hair today. I do like someone else fixing it so that I don't have to. Anyway, I'm going to Christie's and we'll go from there.
Still no call from him. I guess he quit caring if I was alright and not worried about if I'm sad or not. I'm too exhausted to be upset about it. I can't cry anymore, physically, I can't. I've looked like ass for the last two days and I just can't allow myself to wallow in this for another second just for my heath's sake. Work wasn't as bad today and my sweet sweet law student tried to help me feel better. There are plenty of factors in aiding my recovery. Annette took me for some tequilla and to see Lucky Number Slevin which was AWESOME!!!!!!!! I LOVED IT. And OH MY JOSH!!! He's so beautiful. Watching him and having a nice buzz at the same time was excellent and I also slept wonderfully when I got home. Then today, after an alright day at work, my law student was a sweet pea, and then Jt came and took me to Magazine Street where we had lunch and SO MANY LAUGHS it was ridiculous. We laughed ALL DAY and there was no alcohol involved. I SO LOVE making fun of "my field" and "via con dios my brother." As much as my friends and I buck heads about really stupid crap they ALWAYS come through for me in the end.
Jt is always talking about not having love and what's life without it but if what we do for our friends isn't love, I don't know what is. I was feeling very similar until tonight. I want love and I get it, sometimes it's not from the person I'm asking for it from but I have it. It's everywhere, all around me, and I promise to remember that next time I'm having a break down. Thanks everybody.
And as far as my "game plan" still up in the air but for now I'm just going to try and concentrate on me and getting better. I've been listening to A LOT of Fleetwood Mac lately. Another great song but this time from Lindsey.
Go Your Own Way
Loving you
Isn't the right thing to do
How can i ever change things
That i feel
If i could
Maybe i'd give you my world
How can i
When you won't take it from me
You can go your own way
Go your own way
You an call it
Another lonely day
You can go your own way
Go your own way
Tell me why
Everything turned around
Packing up
Shacking up is all you wanna do
If i could
Baby i'd give you my world
Open up
Everything's waiting for you
You can go your own way
Go your own way
You an call it
Another lonely day
You can go your own way
Go your own way
Unfortunately that blog was written like 2 days ago and I'm not feeling quite so chipper. I'm shocked and sad and crushed and any other colorful adjetive that means completely miserable that he hasn't tried to get in touch with me. I mean, is this how he plans on leaving it???
I talked to an old friend today, it made me feel a teensy weensy bit better. I'm supposed to go out but who knows. I'm tired but god damnit my hair looks good. anyway, I have a feeling everyone is just going to flake out on me right now. It sucks. I don't know if I'd mind besides the fact that I spent 25 bucks on my hair today. I do like someone else fixing it so that I don't have to. Anyway, I'm going to Christie's and we'll go from there.