Spread Your Love Like A Fever
So, it's Thanksgiving...woo hoo. I'm waiting for the people to start showing up. I hate that it's at my house this year. Oh well, nothing I can do now but get drunk and pretend to enjoy the company. My biological aunt will be here and she's always great to be around. She's my biological father's sister and though she's a devout Catholic and pretty "follow the rules of God" type, she's uncharacteristically forgiving and unjudgemental. I guess that's what real Christians are supposed to be like. CHRIST-LIKE, following the ways of Jesus while being understanding and compassionate as he. I love having her around, she reminds me of the kind, good, human, compassionate person I want to be. She'll help and she'll still love me if I'm drunk, probably teach me how to tolerate the other people that I can't stand that will be here. I love her. I'm thankful for her today.
Last night I couldn't physically do anything. I went to bed at 10pm and didn't get up until almost 11am today. By this point in the week I'm so tired I can't function properly but thank goodness I got all that rest because I'll be joining Miss Annette and Natalie and Caitlyn at 80's night and that ought to FUN. Marie and Jt and Terry went out and sent me a text but I was too zonkend out to notice. I miss Marie so much I hate that I don't hang out with her much anymore. She's da bomb. I promise that around Christmas I will make more time for her while she's in town on break. I really do miss her and she is one of my closest girlfriends I should see her more. Speaking of, one of my closest friends from high school is getting married soon. I'm having a dilemma cos my ex best friend is going to be standing in her wedding which sucks because now I don't want to attend. Anyway, it got me thinking if I got married RIGHT NOW (hypothetically speaking) who would I ask to stand in my wedding? It's hard because most of my close friends are guys...but I've narrowed it down to 4 people Annette (of course), Heidi (of course), Aimee, and Marie. If I could, Terry and Jt would stand in my wedding but I don't know how they'd feel about wearing dresses. :) I guess none of my friends from high school would be involved in my wedding either. Funny how time changes so many things. I don't think I'm that different from who I was then. I guess that's the whole part that my friends now love about me and that my friends from before don't care so much for. You'd think you'd be praised for becoming an individual and not shunned. Whatever I have other things to worry about besides who is standing in someone's wedding.
I miss Ed more than anything right now. I don't know why cos we've never spent a holiday together before bt for some reason I really wish I had him near me right now. I know had the hurricane not happened he would've probably been over here suffering through my horrible holiday experience with me. I just wish I could escape to his apartment on Erato and snuggle for a few hours and then walk down to the half moon and tie one on just like we used to when something was on my mind and I needed to get away. I hope he's having a great time with his parents and his 6 sisters and his 1 little brother. I bet he is. *sighs* At least my Spanish grandma is here and made that exquisite stuffing she always makes. Ah, the second thing of the day I'm thankful for. I'm going to go start drinking now. Happy Thanksgiving everybody.