needing to make changes.

[actsinglive]

I've realized some things recently... not the least of which is that i'm all fucked up.

i realized that i seek approval from men.
i also realized that it's kind of unhealthy.

I realized that i'm tired of wasting my time on men who don't give a shit about me.
i also realized that i need to stop waiting for and expecting these men to give a shit about me when they're just not going to.

I realized that i'm tired of being alone, and i really would like to have someone to care about,
and someone to care about me.
I've also realized that i just can't believe that that is ever really going to happen.

I've realized that apparently i'm just not a girl worth dating anymore.
i've also realized that i have no one to blame for this but myself.

I've realized some things recently... not the least of which... is that i'm all fucked up.