waiting for life to start
i have nothing to write, nor have i for what seems a very long time. it's fucking awful. i'm goddamn tired of it.
i'm stuck at work till 4, nothing like a twelve hour shift to fuck up your day.
so i'm sittin here, twiddling my fucking thumbs with gaddamn nothing to do, and nothing to write, it's awful.
i feel like i've been sitting here for ages! not just at work, but the universal 'here.' sitting, just waiting for my life to start.
i've been waiting forever, and it still wont start.
i'm not going anywhere, not doing anything, just sitting and fucking WAITING.
i'm goddamn tired of it.
i don't know what i need to do to change it, but i've got to do something.
something big.
i want a new tattoo, but i can never seem to find the money and the time at the same time.
i just want something to change, and i shouldn't, because i just moved, which is a change, and kind of a big one, but... i don't know.. i just feel.... empty. ya know? lacking.
that's what it is, i feel lacking.
what am i lacking??
i haven't the foggiest.
but i am.
what does one do when one needs a change??
I could dye my hair.. which i've thought about... but it just got back to being anywhere Near my natural color, and i kind of like it this way.
i want another tattoo.
i want to DO SOMETHING.
anything.
i just want to do something...
but i don't know what... i've been doing nothing for so long that i don't even know if i could do something.
this is fucking retarded.
and what's worse, is i've been writing, but it's all just nonsensical gibberish. it doesn't help.
fuck.
i'm stuck at work till 4, nothing like a twelve hour shift to fuck up your day.
so i'm sittin here, twiddling my fucking thumbs with gaddamn nothing to do, and nothing to write, it's awful.
i feel like i've been sitting here for ages! not just at work, but the universal 'here.' sitting, just waiting for my life to start.
i've been waiting forever, and it still wont start.
i'm not going anywhere, not doing anything, just sitting and fucking WAITING.
i'm goddamn tired of it.
i don't know what i need to do to change it, but i've got to do something.
something big.
i want a new tattoo, but i can never seem to find the money and the time at the same time.
i just want something to change, and i shouldn't, because i just moved, which is a change, and kind of a big one, but... i don't know.. i just feel.... empty. ya know? lacking.
that's what it is, i feel lacking.
what am i lacking??
i haven't the foggiest.
but i am.
what does one do when one needs a change??
I could dye my hair.. which i've thought about... but it just got back to being anywhere Near my natural color, and i kind of like it this way.
i want another tattoo.
i want to DO SOMETHING.
anything.
i just want to do something...
but i don't know what... i've been doing nothing for so long that i don't even know if i could do something.
this is fucking retarded.
and what's worse, is i've been writing, but it's all just nonsensical gibberish. it doesn't help.
fuck.