hate life
well i leave for vacation friday figuring oh i will hangout with as many people as possible this week and no one can their all too busy with work, or they have a totally other group of friends...so pretty much today i sepnt all day trying to find someone to hangout with and was shot down by everyone!
i don't think i truely have any friends anymore i go to my so called best friends grad party she is around either her bf the whole time or the other girl nd her bf the entire time... which makes me not even want to go to NYC anymore with dancing i'm done i truely don't wanna go.
a birthday party i went to sucked cuz my so called other best friend was all bestie friends with the girl i don't get along with
and my other 2 best friends are together tonight cuz they are best friends and they stick together in our little circle of 4.
i messed up at the end of school and ruined a really good friendship by bitching someone out when i was stressed and i should have just let her live her life the way she wanted and now i feel bad cuz we dont talk.
LYB isn't the same anymore too many people r gone, or don't talk to one another anymore so its way different.
i also don't even talk to the people anymore who in 7th grade when i had 0 friends befriended me and didn't care what other people said about me...
i really messed up this time i spent way too much time with the boy and too little time with friends and i feel selfish and horrible for not realizing it til now...and now i'm all alone with no one and stuck in my room... wow
i kinda wish i had my license so i could get away and go think when i want, or even a job that i could go to and get away from my house.
.... i really messed up.... shit :(
and too really make my day better my parents don't care when i ask them if on the way back home if Jeffs family could stop by for a bit and i could see him for a little while, they said no... they don't care that i won't see him basically for a whole month! oh well i know i should get over it i know people have gone longer without seeing people, maybe thats a sign i should just stop hanging around him so much i don't know but i'll figure it out eventually
i don't think i truely have any friends anymore i go to my so called best friends grad party she is around either her bf the whole time or the other girl nd her bf the entire time... which makes me not even want to go to NYC anymore with dancing i'm done i truely don't wanna go.
a birthday party i went to sucked cuz my so called other best friend was all bestie friends with the girl i don't get along with
and my other 2 best friends are together tonight cuz they are best friends and they stick together in our little circle of 4.
i messed up at the end of school and ruined a really good friendship by bitching someone out when i was stressed and i should have just let her live her life the way she wanted and now i feel bad cuz we dont talk.
LYB isn't the same anymore too many people r gone, or don't talk to one another anymore so its way different.
i also don't even talk to the people anymore who in 7th grade when i had 0 friends befriended me and didn't care what other people said about me...
i really messed up this time i spent way too much time with the boy and too little time with friends and i feel selfish and horrible for not realizing it til now...and now i'm all alone with no one and stuck in my room... wow
i kinda wish i had my license so i could get away and go think when i want, or even a job that i could go to and get away from my house.
.... i really messed up.... shit :(
and too really make my day better my parents don't care when i ask them if on the way back home if Jeffs family could stop by for a bit and i could see him for a little while, they said no... they don't care that i won't see him basically for a whole month! oh well i know i should get over it i know people have gone longer without seeing people, maybe thats a sign i should just stop hanging around him so much i don't know but i'll figure it out eventually