Is anyone listening?
If anyone is reading this, I'm sorry...today, I just feel so alone, and unloved...I know I'm neither alone nor unloved, it's just...I have the feeling that everyone is either mad at me or is annoyed by me. I'm trying to put all of my emotions and feelings in this, but, it doesn't really work, because no one can see my face, and hear my voice...I suppose one could imagine it, but, it's not the same as being there...I really need to talk to someone, but, one person who I would run to is upset with me because I don't want to screw up her life. I know she gives me advice all the time, it's just, I'm afraid that if I tell her something, it'll go wrong, and she'll be hurt, and even more upset with me. She thinks that no one will ever like her, and I know that's not true.
I know it isn't life if there aren't a few screw ups...but, too big of a screw up can cause one to think lower of his or herself, and never do anything of the sort again. If anyone knows what I mean, please let me know, because I could really use a nice talking with someone who'll listen...I know one person who might, but, I'm not sure if he'd be willing to listen to some sappy story...
I know that a person must have an amount of self confidence, which I usually have, but, I don't today. I just feel so low and horrible about myself today, that I'm not sure when I'll be cheerful, and feel loved again. I hope it's sometime soon, but as long as I sit here and think, and not talk to anyone, it won't be very soon. By tomorrow I'll be OK after I get all this stuff out of my system, and I'll probably be OK later today, as soon as I know that people are understanding, and listening to what I'm trying to say.
I'm probably putting everyone in depressed moods, so, I'm gonna stop. I'm already feeling a little better since I wrote everything out, and set it straight.
"I'm not letting you go anytime soon, and by 'anytime soon', I mean never!"