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[actourdreams]

I just realized that I haven't used my Stay With Me/Ali icon for a post in a long time. It was sort of gratifying - I haven't been in that position for a while - and at the same time, made me wonder if I'm moving beyond needing Ned to tell me I can get through. I used to freak myself out by understanding his later writings all too well - I know this sounds pretentious, but they're full of shame and self-loathing and self-destructive thoughts, and I get that, or at least, I did - and at the same time, took hope, because he was great, and maybe that meant that someone like me could be great, too.

But maybe I've moved on from broken. Maybe I'm dreaming in the day again.

This brought about by realizing that I haven't used my "Stay with me"/Ali icon in a long time - since October, to be exact. I know I've used it to reply to other people's posts, but not for myself. I'm putting myself on the other side of the equation - steadfast, not broken. I'm glad.

Uh. In non angsty-and-rambly news, I'm going to do that 30 things for 30 days meme again seeing as I'm not doing anything else with my life, hopefully all of it this time. And day one is...

Day 01 | Your favorite song

Adventures in Solitude, by the New Pornographers

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I've also decided to do 50bookchallenge, so, good luck to me. XD